sneeze sneeze sneeze.
I hope the sickness ends when this year ends.

happy new year everyone!

met nat, chair and tiff today.
It's been 5 years since I last saw them...
It was pretty fun catching up.
but I guess because of the long time I've not seen them, it made it weird too.
They are still pretty much the same in character and it was really really nice to think back on the things we used to do when we were in MG and what we would talk about and do when we all had to stay back after CCA in the canteen to have our committee meetings.
I guess I have always been pretty much away from their crowd but it was still nice to see them after so long.

Did you see the stars tonight?
The sky was amazingly clear :)

I hope each day gets better.

I'm NOT your property.
keep your hands off me
and stop thinking that you know me so well
and that I can tolerate anything from you
cause I'm not that good a person
in fact, I'm a horrible person
So go away and leave me alone.

These few days have been busy busy busy.
So this is just a quick update for all my avid readers. hahaha..
On the 23rd, I came home and slept for like one night at home then it was out of the door and to the loke's .
today's another short night at home and then I'm off for CG chalet.
My house is like a transit airport. hahaha..
And i really dont like it being this way cause i finally got my room back and everything's so perfect.
My bed's nice and comfy with my laptop just next to me on my pull out table and my kara's also next to me...
All i need to do is actually to declutter my room... and it'll be perfect.
I can only do that next week though.. sigh.
It's 12.38 on my laptop clock and im hungry and sleepy.
So i'm off to bed to sleep off the hungriness.
nite!

I'M BACK! :)
it was AWESOME.
4 days 3 nights of being surrounded by nothing but God's marvelous creation and many many MANY mozzies.
Highlights of my trip:
Day 1: LOST MY SLIPPER while jumping off the boat in the pouring rain.
Everyone on the island went: uhoh. bye bye!
I was SO scared I wouldnt get my slipper back and then I would have to survive 4 days with only one slipper
BUT, Super Sumit and Brave Ben went to look for my slipper despite the pouring rain and rescued my poor slipper :) yay!

Day 2: BEAUTIFUL weather. but it threatened to rain at night so we couldnt laze on the pier. Got a little tipsy on a bottle of really good wine while playing hand made poker cards.

Day 3: Went snorkeling! at least attempted to. The water was murky and we didnt really know how to snorkel. my face was stinging cause of the sea water. I dunno why. The night left us all happy when we lay down on the pier admiring the star filled clear night sky.

Day 4: rushed to catch the first boat out. Got stranded in mersing and had to pay 135 bucks to get to the causeway. We thought there was no aircon in the cab at all... until heavy rain met us and then FINALLY the cranky cab driver turned on the aircon.

ok. pictures:)

Ready, steady, GO!


Ben's excited!


Beautiful.



MOZZIES!!!! killed 11 during dinner one night.



The pretty dog that kept following us :)


group pics!



the AWESOME view from the pier.


God was indeed working the skies :) awesome weather.


Sunset.darn clouds.


on our way back.


weird taxi had a dead dried seahorse.. ew.

The whole of today, no one was home from 12pm. I had the whole house to myself :)
andrea, ayeeba and shir came over and we just hung out..
I really liked it cause we were just sitting around and enjoying each other's company.
I miss the times we sat at the back of the canteen and talked about nothing in particular.

I went to the doctor again.
I don't like being sick so much :(
especially not during the holidays.

I don't like this feeling. Lord, take it away. It hurts too much.

today, at the 157 bus queue, there was this man announcing to everyone that these two boys were his grand children.
I was wondering why they were looking at him weird.
soon, their bus came and they left. then, he moved down the queue and stood right in front of me.

man: are you a roman catholic?
me: er.. no.
man: then your cross? you are a christian?
me: yep. I'm a christian.
man: oh. *pause* are you a christian, a roman catholic or santa claus
me: HUH? er... christian. I'm a christian.
man: oh. ok. careful ah. dont fall. the last time I saw this young people they walk then not careful then fall you know?
me: ok. thanks.

then he turned to sumit and started to talk to sumit in dialect.
which part of sumit doesnt tell you he isnt chinese?

WHY do I always encounter these weird people?
Mummy will say: that confirms your calling to be a psychologist.

Mom: Amelia! Eat Papaya!
me: I don't want.
Mom: Papaya is good you know! eat!
me: Its ok. you eat.
Mom: must eat! papaya makes your boobs big. eat one.
me: I DON'T WANT! i don't want bigger boobs.
mom: eat la.. a little bit bigger is always good.

...
sigh. all these old wives tales.

I was going to the toilet in Suntec..
and on my way out,
THERE WAS A FLASHER RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!
I didnt see clearly, but if I'm not wrong.... IT REALLY WAS......
AHHHHHHH...
gross gross gross.

Not that I don't know there were such people..
But reading about them in textbooks and MEETING them is two very different things ok.

sigh. WHY are some people so weird.

oh. and.. another allergic reaction just happened. sigh.
I shall go down to the docs soon to find out what I'm allergic to so that I dont have to find out the hard way.
this body of mine is really troublesome :(

enchanted is magical.
best movie of the year in my opinion :)

today felt so strange.
My phone was strangely silent.
cause Jon's on holiday! so there is no one to bug me
there is still deathspyke la.. hahahha...
but there used to be two.
now there is only one.

oh well.. JON! I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GOOD TIME IN YIPOON!

I shall go listen to another Jon.
the one that can melt my heart.....
Jon McLaughlin, will you marry me?
You voice just stole my fragile heart away...hahahaha...

Ever ever after may only be a wish away...

Today is when Kara the Keyboard came.
I told myself I wouldn't name my instruments but I broke my own rule
Today is also when the joy of being a pseudo single child ends.
sisters coming back from a 4 day camp.
Why didn't they go on a year long one.
I'm so bad.
And Today is when daddy asked me how I'm going to pay for my education in Australia.
Today is the day I realise how unsure I am of the future.
If I don't get a scholarship, I probably won't go and further my studies.

I don't like the idea.
I don't like the uncertainty.
I don't like Today much.
and its only 12 plus.
I still have another 12 hours of Today to survive.

can store names get any cheesier?

dad: we are going to changi airport.
mum: why? you missed the exit isit?
dad: We are going to simei right?
mum: den if not where?
dad: we are on the way to changi airport
mum: go there for what?
dad: to send them off
mum: send who off?
-silence-
dad: *laughs* senile already.

hahahahaahahaha..
i couldnt stop laughing.
sigh. sometimes daddy's so random its so funny.

It's over!
THE HOLS ARE HERE!
:)
time to enjoy:)
today, I went out with sumit.
He wanted to get slippers and I had 20% off. so yeah.
I ended up buying more than him. hrmph.
I need to stop spending so much!!!!!

The walls around me are falling. and I'm afraid.

WHY do mosquitoes only bite me?
there are four grown people in the same room as me and the mozzies only attack my oh so beautiful and tender legs.
ARGH.
I hate mosquitoes.
and I hate lizards, cause they arent doing their job of eating the mozzies.
(and they look so creepy and cold and squishy and slimy and icky and gross)
I heard this myth that mosquitoes only bite people of a certain blood type.
But its not true.
Two other people in the room have the same blood type as me and they didnt even get a single bite.
I have... FIVE!
oh goodness. fat greedy mosquito.
at least I got my revenge..
muahahahahaha.
I KILLED the blasted mosquito.
the revenge of the blistered powerful killer hands
yeah.
my hands are still blistered.
sigh.
I hope they heal soon so that SOME PEOPLE wont keep saying I'm diseased.
I'm going to bed. and hide under my blanket so the mozzies can't bite no more.

I BOUGHT IT! I BOUGHT IT I BOUGHT IT!
its coming next monday :)
yay!
now I can't concentrate.. hahaha..
THREE MORE DAYS!

CITY MUSIC IS SELLING THE KORG SP250 FOR S$1040!!!
oh man..
DAVID AND ROYSTON!! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TELL ME ABOUT THEIR ONGOING SALE!
I so want to go..
there is still the blasted exams.
And anyway, I dunno if I should get it..
mainly cause I'm not sure if the parents are going to allow me to lug it to aussie with me when I go..
BUT I SO WANT IT!
I have to at least go down and touch it.
one day.
AHHHHHH...

4 more days!!!!!!!!!
don't sell out pleeeease...

I cut my hair.
I dyed my hair for the first time in 21 years.
I think I look like a golden monkey.
I should have gone ahead with pink instead.
Then at the most I'll look like... pink panther.
It's amazing how hard it is to find pink hair dye.

ANYWAY,
5 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM.
3 more exams in the next 5 days
Even though my core exam is one of the three
I feel more relaxed somehow
:)
I think I'll start feeling the stress again on monday.
I CAN'T WAIT!

Cerlyn told me they no longer need me at shu at their counter.
I'm sad.
I love working there. sigh.
oh well.
Hopefully I get a couple of days of work at least.
My upcoming trip's going to burn quite a hole in my pocket.
I have to constantly remind myself to not think about the hols..
BUT ITS SO HARD! ITS JUST 5 DAYS AWAY! sigh.
FOCUS!
ok. back to attitudes and conformity.

ps: CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! :)

I secretly detest people who comment on how fat people are.
I hate it when people watch tv and point out every fat person and exclaim like it the most intelligent thing in the world: "so fat!"
I hate it cause I know what it does to a person
How perfectly beautiful people fall into the pit of eating disorders because of these mindless, stupid, insensitive comments.
sigh.
Is it really so bad to be fat? :(

I have not been eating oats for breakfast this past couple of days and my mom thinks its very strange.
Every morning, she'll just come down to the breakfast table to ask me if i want oats.
When I say no, she'll then head back to her room to continue sleeping.
why is it so weird that I don't eat oats anymore??
fine. I'll eat them tomorrow.
my tummy feels funny without oats for too long anyway.

I don't know why I just wrote about that.
i had oatmeal cookies yesterday
that counts as oats doesnt it?? hmm.

I'm so scared and afraid
I'm shaking in my seat
My heart is thumping so hard
I feel its every beat

My notes in front of me
My body stiff and tense
The paper's a few hours away
But nothing's making sense

then a voice beside me
whispers in my ear
Don't be afraid!
All you need is prayer

thanks to the little voice
I'm a little less anxious
but reality still remains
my paper's in a few hours!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I wish I had more stuff to blog about.
I wish i had loads of pretty pictures to post.
I wish i was on holiday.
i wish i wish...
10 more days....

Sumit: Hey! do you want to go for stardust?
Ben: Is that a new beer??

oh goodness. Our youth worker is an alcoholic. tsk.

I went to see jon ong play today at siloso beach.
I HAD to write this if not, he will say i never write about him again.
haha..
SO HOT LA SENTOSA!
I had to play for service in the morning so i couldnt wear shorts :(

After that, sumit was emo.
sigh.
I really dont understand men you know.
and they say WE women have mood swings. tsk.

4 more days to my first paper.
I'm started to get a little bit nervous.

Anyway, two nights ago i remember dreaming about squirrels the size of cockroaches.
another dream to add to my list of weird dreams.

There is so much I want to do after the exams.
Yesterday Sumit said something about not being able to wait for me to end my exams so that I can entertain him.
DREAM ON.
haha..
It's my holidays
And I'm not an entertainer.
blegh.

I feel like taking out my calendar and charting out the things to do..
but I have to go read about rape and trauma and sexual abuse.
how exciting.

I felt really frustrated today during rehearsal.
Every time i tried to build, the AV will push me down and so my efforts are lost
After a while, i just gave up
I stopped playing and no one noticed cause everyone was too busy with their instruments and i was so soft it didnt matter whether i played or not.
I really felt redundant standing there and just watching ppl play and pretended to move my hands to give the illusion of playing
I was really really discontent and irritated


But on the bus ride back, i thought about everything
and then I realized how poor I am
How I always say that music should always be secondary
and then today I just missed out on worshipping by focusing on how disgusting everything was sounding

Lord, remind my forgetful mind that only You matter.

I was going to write a song on my exams and how i hate it and how i wish to be FREEE...
i had all the lyrics but then i couldnt remember the tune correctly so i didnt want to embarrass myself.
And so there is no song tonight.

Today was a frightful day.
I really thank God for great friends who are there for me.
Thanks jon for walking down with me.
And thanks geri for studying with me today :)
and thanks haikal for reserving seats!

I'm tired.
I'm sorry posts now adays are so boring.
my life now is just study from morning till night.
Maybe tonight i'll have another weird dream and then i can write another entertaining post tmw. :)

I learn new things everyday.. which is good. cause i'm supposed to be.
Anyway, today, i found out that the bible has been used by many to justify acts.
The way some people twist the Word of Truth has been remarkably disgusting.
I read about how Reverend Thornton Stringfellow was using the bible to justify slavery.
He said that Jesus accepted slavery and never spoke out against it and hence we should keep it.
Sometimes, the things I hear make me sad.
How someone who is suppose to know God so well can think of Him that way.

then the next thing that comes to my mind is how much exactly do I know my God.
I don't want to misinterpret his word.
I don't want to think that He said anything else other than what He intended to say.

ANYWAY, I went to watch STARDUST
its a really good movie. really.
Charlie Cox is just MAGICAL :)

Sigh.

Anyway, after the movie, i was thinking how it was everyone's dream to be able to just leave this world and enter into a magical world and be a king or queen or prince or princess in another world..
One wonders how Tristan could be so relaxed about the fact that he was sacked from his job.
And then, i realise that we too are destined to be royalty in another place.
We too are princes and princesses of of the kingdom of Heaven :)
We may face many evils and trials in this world but we are all protected by God himself
and that when it seems like we are at our wits end, all we have to do is to hold on tightly to the One we Love and we will get through it :)

It's amazing how great stories are so similar to the great story we know.

I love You.

today, i learnt that in order to reduce the chances of being raped, I have to unlearn being nice, being helpful, being friendly.
I'm going to start being mean.

I also learnt that some ppl only talk to you when they want to hear about the latest gossip...
or when you show signs of being in love and they want the story from you.

i dont like these two facts at all.

today's sermon was entertaining.
The key verses were from Psalm 1.

closing prayer:
dear God, we want to thank you for Psalm 1 (someone).

hahahaha...

Australian Kongkong and Mama are here now :)

i have a headache. argh.

today has been just such a busy day. everything started at 9 this morning and didnt stop all the way till like 10pm.
I'm drained
but really satisfied.
I got to see leanne joy wong, jon ong and joel..
and a whole lot of others at michelle's birthday.
I'm really tired.
But it's been a well spent saturday.

If only you knew.

I AM upset.
I'm upset that you took what was mine.
I'm upset that you think that it is your right.
Why can't I be upset.

WHY.

today was traumatic.
I'm glad its over.

Hey deathspyke. I'll be praying for you.

I wish I knew for sure.

i broke my ice cream fast.
twice.

well, at least i lasted 2 weeks.
stupid ben and jerry's.
stupid creamery.
why must they make such good ice cream.

church
lunch and hanging out with jia, shing and nag
staying for parachute band thing rehearsal
tea with the niners
shopping with the niners
dinner with joel and jon
supper with jia, shing, nag, ben and joel
driving to CCK and back

today has been good.
I need to study.

Sermon today really spoke to me.
It was what I was praying to God about the night before.

I give my life to the Potter's hands.

Today, I made up for all the lost food i havent eaten.
Went for a buffet dinner.
i'm so full now.

On our way there, I was asking my mom what kind of buffet it was.. like.. was it chinese or jap or international.........

me: What type of buffet is it ah?
Dad: The all you can eat type.

yes. My dad says the smartest things.

Lydia drove home.
It was pretty exciting to be driven home by someone other than my father.
But then..
the car ride back was.... well...
Let's just say Lydia and daddy shouldnt sit in the front seats together.
The conversation was just blegh.
at least I got home safe.

I can't wait for tmw :) meeting the niners.

Strange Dreams

Last night, I dreamt that I was in the middle of the BIG field at bukit timah, sitting around this HUGE hot plate with my Cell Group and frying prata.
It wasnt really prata.. hmm..
i dunno..
It was like flat like prata.. but flatter...
Like crepe.. you know?

Then suddenly, I was in this jail thing and we were sitting in this room that looked SOOO much like a classroom..
and then I was part of this group called the thursday girls. I dunno why.
Anyway, we were all given locks to unlock..
they were really pretty.
like all sorts of designs and all.
And then I didnt get to do it cause i was called out by a warden.
And then my alarm rang.
It was like... i KNEW I had to leave the room soon..
Cause i KNEW i was in a dream.
And i couldnt just disappear in front of all the other prisoners..
And that was when the warden came.
I remember having this really intellectual discussion with this other girl in the room...

I have the weirdest dreams.

I CAN EAT! I CAN EAT!! I CAN FINALLY EAT!!!!!!!!!!

though in very small mouths cause my lips are still healing.
BUT I CAN EAT SOLID FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God is good. He really is.
He knew I'm going to go out today and I needed to eat today
And He remembered my buffet dinner celebrating my grandpa's bday tmw!!!!

He loves me :)

I've run out of websites to visit..
all I do now is read read read.. which is good.. but makes me fall asleep.. heh.
So I sleep alot.
Which is also good.. but I feel unaccomplished at the end of the day.

I really hope tmw, my ulcers will be gone.
and I can eat..
BUT for now, water's good :)
Now, I have the important task of tasting different brands of water to see if they taste different.
thanks to jon ong. hahaha..
I havent started though..
my lips today are bleeding a bit more than usual so everything tastes like it has blood.
ok. that was gross.

Today, i spent the day sleeping and reading...
you know, in a month, it'll be the hols.
it seems like this sem just zipped past.

My rash is almost gone.
The only thing that needs healing now is my tongue and lips..
there are ulcers on the surface of my tongue which is the main thing that's preventing me from consuming anything solid.
My lips are healing.. i think.. i hope.

one day, i'll look back at all this and be proud of myself for surviving this ordeal.
one day... :)

my love handles are GONE! hahaha..
probably the only good thing that came out of this illness..

solution to your love handles: Go on a liquid diet for 4 days. Just 4 days. Nothing but milk and water. Sure to lose.
though you'll start craving very bad for food, and you'll just feel generally weak.

not that I had a choice.
BUT ANYWAY, i'm enjoying time without my love handles till i pig out again and get them back :)

went to school today.. just for a couple of hours for a lecture i THOUGHT was important.
feel partially cheated.
But i got to have 'lunch' with great company, and that was good. :)
thanks to you all who made my first day of freedom after so long, so nice. :)

the worst thing about this illness is not the pain.
Nor is it the blisters or the ugliness (Though i dont think i look bad with thick red lips)
nor is it about not being able to eat anything
rather, its not being able to touch my piano,
not being able to sing
not being able to write and journal
not being able to do stuff i usually do to praise God...

today, I tried to play the piano...
heh.
it hurt like mad
but the first chord sounded SOOOOOOOO good..
it rung in my ears and i teared.
I can't play much
but God, as much as I can play, every note, every chord, every song is to You.

after 5 minutes, i couldnt go on...
But those 5 minutes were the best 5 mins i've had in a long time.

*close eyes tight and wishes*
GET WELL! GET WELL! GET WELL!

*peeks*
sigh.
still that fat sausage mouth and that rash covered body.

GO AWAY YOU STUPID ALLERGY!

i'm too bored.

I WANT TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
list of things to eat after i recover:
- Chicken nuggets
- Fillet O Fish
- chocolate cake
- hot dog
- chicken hor fan
- beef hor fan
- PRATA
- Naan and chicken masala
- chicken chop
- sushi
- spring rolls
- squid heads
- EVERYTHING solid.

Even drinking is difficult.
BLASTED allergy.

Went to see the doc today.
I was so relieved when she told me she was going to give me medicine that would make me sleep..
I didnt sleep a wink last night.
The pain and the itch kept me awake.

Currently, my lips are 3 times its original size.
I have large blisters on my lips and in my mouth.
So I cant eat. Even eating oats is painful.
sniff. I hate this.
Anyway.. I also have tiny blisters all over my body.
These are red. small and boy do they itch.

I hope they subside by sunday.. oh well.

THE DOCTOR THOUGHT I WAS 14! hahahaha... :)
tts the only good thing today.
Anyway, diagnosis is that its an allergic reaction to some medication I was taking...

At least I get to sleeeeeeeeeeep in :)

Today, i'm SWOLLEN.
my lips are like angelina jolie's, my eyes are small and puffy...
Haikal was trying to find out the causes of it today during gender studies lect.

possible cause: A cockroach peed in both my eyes.

alarming? no.
He then proceeded to tell me this very entertaining and informative fact:
On average, A person swallows 8 spiders while he is sleeping throughout his life.

I wonder how many I've swallowed already.
Haikal hopes he's not above average yet.

this has been an interesting lecture.
And it all started with a swollen, puffy me.

so much has been going on lately.
so much I dont like.
so much I could do without.

Tonight, I just want silence.
I just want to be encompassed again by His presence.

No one seems to understand.... no one, but You.

If there was such a thing as a mucus bank, I'll be a millionaire there now.
maybe even a billionaire.

I can't bear the thought of leaving my Saviour
My greatest fear is not having Jesus beside me
I only want to go where He sends
Even if i can't be what I want to be

I don't want to do what isn't His plan
No, I don't ever want my way
Cause nothing can ever be better
Than Jesus with me everyday

If anything dares come between us
Lord, throw it into the deepest sea
Don't listen to the cries of my worldly flesh
Cause You're all I need close to me.

Tears come to my eyes whenever
I don't feel Your presence around me
Please hold me and keep me forever
In fellowship together with Thee

I hate it when the flu bug comes and hinders my offering of worship.

Today, Sumit found out that I eat oats.
He called me a horse.
stupid sumit.

I'm thinking of going on an ice cream and liquor fast.
like.. for a month.
If i can, till the end of this year.
I dont think i can last a week.

But i still think i should.
I'm weird. Right, jon ong?

I was taking the train the other day and some kid who was only about 5 years old was reading this dictionary.
talk about nerd.
anyway, she came to the word: acute.

girl: mummy, what is acute.
mom: acute means fast.

WHAT! since when?
aye. stop teaching your kids the wrong thing can?
can you imagine next time she goes to proper school?

teacher: who knows what acute means?
girl: *jumps up and down in her seat* I KNOW I KNOW!
teacher: ok. what is it?
girl: acute means fast
teacher: er.. no.
girl: but mummy said so!
teacher: sorry dear.. that's wrong.

CAN YOU IMAGINE THE EMBARRASSMENT SHE WILL FACE??
AND THE HORROR TO FIND OUT HER MOTHER, HER OWN MOTHER HAS BEEN LYING TO HER ALL THIS WHILE?
women, don't lie to your kid.ok?

Sometimes I wish I had something nice to wake up to.
Something other than school and work and projects and.....oats.
ok. not sometimes. Most of the time.

well, most of the time, the sun's just annoying.
It breaks my sleep cycle. hrmph.

I PUT ON ONE WHOLE KILO!!!!



I have a weight obsession.
haha.
I dont like stepping on the scale and realising I'm heavier than what I usually weigh.
I should start exercising. yeah right.
at least i'm still not the fattest in the family.
BLUEY'S FATTER!! muahahahaha...
just joking. I still love you bluey.

Leah Hang Ying Jue is a happy girl today :)
I'm a happy girl too.

oh well.
Mummy gave me some indian desert to eat today.
It's some ginger sweet thing. blegh.
I dont like it.
tastes.... gingery.

went to alameen today.
sitting beside us (ben, sumit and I) were a group of indians with really strong indian accent.
SUMIT NAG started laughing. and that made us all laugh.
Sumit Nag, you indian laughing at your own kind! damn bad la you.
haha.
I hope i dont get jailed for this.

I was just wondering....
what does hamster breath smell like.
must be pretty funky
since they eat their own shit and store in in their mouths.
hmmmm.....

Went to my godbrother's house for dinner today.
His sister is sooo cute and so funny.. haha..
She randomly said:
"Look! I'm a rabbit! I thump my feet! *Thump thump*"
hahaha.. who told her that rabbits thump their feet.


I was cleaning the hamster cages and I realised something
My dear bluey is a spitter.
When I pick him up, he spits everything he has kept in his tiny mouth, out.
He has a really big mouth I must say.
And the myth about hamsters eating their shit, its true. hahahahahaha...
Huey on the other hand is a licker.
He licks every inch of my hand once i pick him up...
A little bit freaky cause its like he is preparing to sink his tiny teeth into my fat squishy arm.
But no la. He hasnt bit me yet.
I'm facinated. somehow.

Family and friends are like butt cheeks..
Shit may seperate them, But they always come back together.

There's a whole lot of shit between the buttcheeks now.

I WENT SHOPPING TODAY!
spreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
it felt good.
REALLY good. :)
I love shopping.
shopping helps lower chances of dementia.
looks like I'm safe from dementia.
yay!

Note to self: My purpose in life is to please God.

Lord, I'm scared of what lies ahead.

Take my hand.

I need You more than anything...

I really feel like blogging, but I don't know what to write.
I never know what to write anymore.
I was going to write about a story of a booger monster which i saw on tv a while ago.
It was pure gross.
then i was going to rant about how busy my week was and is, but it isnt really interesting.
then i was going to wish Kenneth a happy birthday but then he wont read this so there isnt a point.
then I wrote this cause I really dont know what to write.
and so, today's entry is totally pointless.

But it's just here to commemorate the days I have nothing to write about but feel like running my fingers across the keyboards.

Worship

A time to crank the Marshall stack
A time to go get the acoustic back
A time to bang on the cymbals and chimes
A time to just keep simple time
A time to thumb and pop and slap
A time to keep Doxology from sounding like rap
A time to bang out those keys like mad
A time to just hold a one-note pad
A time to rock with big lights and sound
A time to turn them both way down
A time to ask for more-of-me
A time to sacrifice for harmony
A time to toss the wedge over the hill
A time to know when IEM's are overkill
A time to play light as a feather
A time to stop playing altogether
A heart of worship is what we should bring
Before we let the praises ring

Blogger doesnt let me upload pics from my birthday.. hrmph.
I've been trying to upload them for days.

thank God for photobucket who is much more reliable.
lalala.

so here they are.
Enjoy.



delicious green shit.

Here I am, Sitting, eating expired fish floss and rice.
Don't ask me why i'm eating expired fish floss.
cause I don't know why
I ate it then realised it was expired.

I have a turkish ice cream craving now.
even though I've never ate turkish ice cream in my whole entire life...
And I have two tests tmw.
I can't wait for thursday, 6pm.
CAUSE I'LL BE FREEEEEE..
not really. but close. heh.

today's presentation went well.
I managed to make the whole class laugh and create a very exciting discussion after my presentation. That's good right? haha..

ok. i'm off to stardie.

Today, went for dinner with my family at heritage.
It's an indian restaurant.
its actually really really good!
I'll blog with pictures next week when i have more time.

We saw this guy's family there.. my mom's friend..
and my dad was like: HUH? SO AND SO AH. (i cant remember the name)
all of us went: SHHHHHHHHH really loudly.. hahahahahaha....
my dad's so embarressingly funny.
Then my sisters decided to talk about the latest Indian commercial, imitating their accent IN THE INDIAN RESTAURANT. goodness.

anyway, my dad was talking about all these random things and somehow we came to the topic of farts.
My dad told us about this friend of his who could make music with his fart.
My mom just calmly said: wow. His fart must be really powerful. *rolls eyes*
I couldnt stop laughing.

I have the weirdest family. But I love them all the same.

This week has been very trying for my family.
First, the death of my 5th grand uncle
Now, my grandma fell, crushing her shoulder.
She has to have a shoulder implant.

Lord, grant me strength.

ANTZ chalet

one night of fun in the company of my Cell group= pure enjoyment. :)

We had a BBQ which was really really successful..

We didnt have a Grill but we found an abandoned old one.. So we put aluminium foil over it and used it..Half way while cooking chicken wings, THE WHOLE THING CAUGHT FIRE! hahaha... It was so amusing. We were half screaming, half laughing and trying to put out the fire and save the chicken wings! BBQing was fun :)

Then went down to cafe del mour to chill with some other youths and Steven... THANKS STEVEN FOR THE DRINKS!

They kept playing this really irritating music.

Tim said its called house or something. dunno la.. i just remember it being VERY irritating.

I became really really red.. heh. and all of them thought i was high and drunk. even though I wasnt.

i think.

Anyway, after that, we walked down the beach and then finally settled somewhere, in the middle of no where, and we just talked till about 4am. It was a little cold, but really nice and relaxing. . Walter went back to the chalet first though, cause his feet were hurting him. Poor walter..soon, scott joined him.. haha..

I only had about 3 hours of sleep.. but it doesnt matter much. The only bad thing that happened was that My camera got scratched by the sand...... ahhhh! heart pain.

Oh well.. enough blabber... PICTURES! :)

We'll miss you Lao peh...

My granduncle passed away.

I only learnt about it this morning when I went over to my grandparent's house.

It was so sudden.

He was ill and was in and out of the hospital....but.

I guess I never really thought about him dying.

I used to see him around toa payoh after church, when he was running errands.

He would always call me as my mom's daughter.

Always reminding us about what we used to do when we were young...

I loved going to his house during chinese new year.

Not cause of the ang paos.. they only gave four bucks.

But because their goodies were always very good :) heh.

I kinda miss him. though I wasnt very close to him.

The first thing that came to my mind was my grandparents.

I dont know what would happen when they go...

I dont really want to think about that...

mummy's in vietnam.

It's been an eventful day.

Mummy bought me a purity ring...

It is to remind me to keep myself pure :)

Lydia will get one too when she goes to Australia.

Mom: This is a purity ring. I'll pass it to you when you go to australia.

Lydia: What's it for?

Mom: To act as a reminder to keep yourself pure.

Lydia: You think I'll have sex when I go to australia ah??

Mom: er... NO LA. just a reminder.. heh.

Lol. My mom is so not subtle.

But hey! SHE GAVE ME ONE TOO!

hrmph. what is she implying.

My mom is going on a trip to Vietnam tmw..
And I'll be away on friday night,
My dad will be over at my grandpa's looking after him.

SO, it'll only be Leah and Lydia at home.
My mom is really really worried.
Lydia comes home late so Leah is left alone.
Leah is so blur, sometimes she forgets to eat.

mom: Lydia, don't come back too late k? If not Leah will be alone at home.
Lydia: she'll be sleeping la.
Leah: AYE! I don't always sleep.
me: YA RIGHT.
mom: anything can call grandpa grandma k?
leah: ok.
mom: But don't anyhow call. Don't see lizard only then call ah.
Lydia and I: HUH? HAHAHAHAHA..
mom: YA! the other day she called me when I had CG and told me there was a lizard in the toilet and she started crying..

oh man. My family is soooo weird.. but yet, so entertaining.

Deleted my other account.. though I should have tried to transfer everything here before I did that..
Oh well..
Here's to ANOTHER fresh new start to everything.

:)