And so this is the last day of the year.
*Cue emo post*
It's like the day to reflect on what has past and think about what is to come.
HOW to not be emo?
anyway, I'm excited(not emo) about the new year.
it'll be a new life, filled with challenges in a new place, with new ppl...(emo?)
awesome(not emo).
I have about 6 weeks left in Singapore(emo?).
It just feels strange(not emo).
I have yet to do up my visa(emo?).
And I have yet to pack(emo?!?).
This is dangerous(not emo).

Dear flu,
please go away so I can go have my health checkup.
thanks.
love, Amelia

I was just talking to debs and saying that all I think of when I think about going to brizzie is the bunch coming down to visit.
So unrealistic cause in reality I'll be studying away and all rather than playing...
BUT THEN, it's just nicer to think about the possible happy and exciting times rather than the mundane 'get good grades' times.
I'm off to family gathering...
and to a night of fun and joy :)

DRUMROLL!

THE THREADLESS TEES ARRIVED!
MARCUS! YOU ARE NOT JINXED!

skinny christmas

This has got to be the only christmas I am not putting on the pounds.
My bad cough and throat has barred me from alot of glorious food.
and my personal guard has kept me from reaching out to eat anything more than one potato chip (after which I have to down a whole glass of water)
My appetite has also gone down due to the constant coughing (dont ask me why)
and I lost the kilo I put on after recovering from the lymph node trauma.
I shall celebrate christmas again.

I have to start work on the 2nd of Jan though..
not that I'm complaining.
earning money is always good.
I actually thought I would be jobless after yesterday..
The VP emailed to say they wouldnt be engaging me anymore..
then this morning the science HOD called to ask me to go in to be some lab assistant cum relief.
somehow, the latter sounds like they made a title in order to fully utilise my presence there by giving me two jobs.
Economic crisis.
one month of 6am mornings....
I WILL SURVIVE! (I miss body combat a tad bit. heh.)

I was so sleepy the whole day.
When people were talking to me I was trying my best not to fall asleep.
but I survived.
I think I shall take a week of rest after this week.
The threadless package is still not here.
I'm planning to get matt proper t-shirts.
I shall go sleep.
A day long party tmw at amanda's...
harry potter movie marathon.
I hope I dont fall asleep and drool all over her couch. hahahaha..

christmas 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)
Spent today at matt's place..
mich and JA came over to join us at night for dinner.
Can I say that I have never ever seen such a stuffed fridge ever?
and they have TWO stuffed fridges.
Andrea, matt's niece is SUPER CUTE. heh.
She tried this nail thing that wasnt very successful :(
but today was really nice.
dinner and all.
we attempted honey cornflake cups but it was UNSUCCESSFUL.
I will try it again some other time..
My arms are so going to hurt tmw from all that wii playing.
tmw's shopping with amanda and seafood dinner :)

today I wore a tunic and tights.
I told myself NEVER to get sucked into the tights thing
but the dress i wanted to wear was a little too short so in order not to look skanky, it was necessary to put on some tights.
can I say that tights have got to be the most comfortable thing ever?
I'm so doing that again.

FAITH

seriously.
This lost threadless tees thing is getting out of hand.
It's not even confirmed lost and people (namely Geri and Marc) are already in mourning.
Marc is on his knees praying they aren't really lost.
Geri has hit my facebook wall.
but SERIOUSLY,
Marc has got to be the sway-est guy I know. hahahahahaha..
We still love you Marc. (I remember saying this last year too)
I think the lack of GG is causing us to hu si luan xiang.

my throat is sore
my nose is blocked
My eyes are puffy
the flu has hit.
but I'm still really happy :)
the threadless tees WILL come.
have faith.

today, I met mich for shopping!
I bought only stuff I needed (except for that one headband)...
I feel proud of myself :)
then we had dinner with JA and Matt..
Mich started going CRAZY wanting this clip on hat thing that everyone in orchard was having.
and she also went mad trying to make matt jealous by holding my hand and hugging me and all...
then we brought them to our secret place..
ice cream and talk was great.
I love talking about things beyond the weather.
This week's going to be exciting
CHRISTMAS IS COMING SOON!

Last year, we had 2 batches.
Recall SUPER EXCITED MARCUS and the lost package.
This year, 4 batches
3 have come.
GUESS WHICH ONE HASNT ARRIVED??
and I went to put my tees in the same batch as him.

MARCUS!!! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE YOU?!?!

This week is mad crazy.
oh well, so was last week.
I met amanda today (or rather, yesterday)
It was the only time I genuinely laughed the whole day...
other than when Liang went 'Who's that?' into the mike when Clarabel stepped into Youth today..
The whole day I was just thinking about how annoying I probably was, being all angry and ignoring S (I'm learning from shing.. being all mysterious about the people though everyone knows who this peanut is)
today walter was saying that he felt really uncomfortable when I talk about S.
And I thought about it alot.
Although after that he said he doesn't mean that he doesn't want to hear my side of the story.
I have decided that I will stop trying to defend myself.
Cause my close friends should know me and I shouldn't have to explain myself.
I'm leaving soon anyway.
that solves the issue to the certain extent.
Tomorrow will be a better day.

Gathering at MOF today was fun.
Seeing Ayeeba, Drea, Shir, Ken and HongMeng again was really really nice :)
My hair's starting to act weird.
I shall do something with it soon.
Yesterday was christmas party night.
Mummy had a party at Normanton and then after that, Antz trooped down to daryl's for drinks.
I really enjoy my time with Antz and I'm trying to savour every moment I have with them at the moment.
Yesterday I was really mean in two diff ways.
The first was by not letting the kids drink alcohol cause I was being righteous about keeping the law.
The second is about a certain type of dirty water.
I am not really apologetic about either.
Of course it would be nice if I could deal with the second situation but to be truly honest, I'm not really interested in it
I had rehearsal today and something didn't seem right.
Maybe it's cause I'm so caught up with all these negative feelings.
I'm skipping JC gathering tonight cause I don't have much to talk to with them now adays.
I'm looking forward to seeing Amanda tmw cause I have so much to tell her...
DEBS! WE HAVE TO MEET SOON TOO! I'M SURE YOU WANT TO BE UPDATED! hahaha..
'tis the season to be jolly, falalalalalalalala

I wish I had my own Polaroids to post...
I ate a whole lot today!
Dimsum at REDSTAR in the morning
a tortilla and cakes at TOAST in the afternoon
Hogsbreath for dinner at night.
WHAT HAPPENED TO MY PACEMYSELFFORTHEHOLIDAYS PLAN!
oh well.
my C&K voucher just came in the mail so I'm going to buy myself a new bag soon.
today my mind has been overworked.
I've been thinking the WHOLE DARN DAY.
This could be really easy but I chose to complicate things and now it's become too complicated.
I don't like it.
I really enjoyed today though.
I never laughed so much for a really long time...
I'm glad I got to spend time with the Lokes
And I'm glad Mr Joseph Ng is back.
This hectic week is almost over.
Monday will come soon enough.

I AM GREATLY SADDENED!
I was waiting in anticipation for my wonderful wallet from Urban Outfitters but APPARENTLY IT WENT OOS!
It happened the last time with this other bag I bought at UO too!
now I no longer have a wonderful wallet :(
it has been transferred from the 'i got' list to the 'i want' list.
boo.

I went to watch Bolt (3d) just now and it was really funny.
The 3D thing didn't add much I think.. no dogs jumping out and all that..
but the hamster has got to be the funniest thing.
I wish they made it less round and ball like though.
It would be better if the body had more movement other than just folding itself.
Anyway, this week is going to be mad crazy busy.
My days are packed with activities! WOOHOO!
Loves it.
tmw is Day 1 of Crazy Week.
Bingo at the old folk's home then dinner with godpa.
yippee!
on the other hand, I have alot of thinking and praying to do this week.
so NO TIME TO STOP AND STARE!
WORK IT!

cupcakes are wonderful for breakfast.
camp photos will come when I have time to upload them one by one...
so this weekend was eventful.
Friday and Saturday were shopping days.
I went out with mummy and bought a whole load of things...
half for aussie and the other half for fun.
I love shopping with mom.
Friday was her birthday!
It was a very dramatic day cause daddy forgot and he tried to bluff his way through by saying he was going to bake a cake in the MICROWAVE.
I'm really pleased with all my buys :)
Saturday was Michelle's birthday party...
Only Jia and I went (from our CG...)
I'm glad Jia went.. Or else I would be the only one from our CG then it would be very sad.
Today I walked Orchard Road in 3 inch heels for HOURS and I only got one blister.
I'm very proud of myself.
tmw I'm spending the day in slippers.
Alot of ppl commented that I look like I lost weight today and I want to stay this way.
Somehow, I know its impossible.
BUT ONE CAN DREAM.
It's going to be party season soon.
Everything's starting this tuesday for me
and it's exciting :)
Christmas is on its way!

ARGHHHHHHHH.
I need to get out of the house.
I spent yesterday watching taiwanese dramas and cleaning my room.
My room's still pretty messy but it's less dusty and I like it less dusty.
Raine Yang should NEVER act cute.
its puke inducing.
I still need my cable. pfft.

I need to plan more excitement in my life..
just that everyone seems to be either away or doing something else.
the holiday's boring when friends are not around.

the FIVE 'Nevers'

I'm never going to make my own dress.
cause everytime I say I want to, I never get down to it.
I'm never going to effectively stay away from threadless
I swear the deals get better each year and the tees get cuter and funnier that you JUST HAVE TO BUY THEM.
I'm never going to a youth camp ever again.
I have decided that camps just aren't for me.
whether it's catered for older or younger youths, having to be sociable and make friends is just too tiring to do for 4 days 3 nights consecutively.
I know the spiritual aspect and all is GREAT but so is worship on sunday for me.
It's only extraordinary for people who think God cannot touch you during sunday worship itself.
I'm never going to allow myself to grow fat and not do anything to try to stop it.
My greatest fear of all time is growing fat.
Not just fat fat.
I just have to be like L___a and I would probably be freaked out.
I'm so mean. but it's the reality in my head.
I'm never going to speak to S again cause I don't think I want to.
Everytime I talk to S it sucks energy and effort out of me to not scream and strangle him.
I have removed him from msn and blocked him on facebook.
childish as it may be, I will never be as childish as S.
one day, I may find myself with no friends cause I'm so mean like that.
But I know that speaking to you or living my life claiming you are my friend when you actually are not would be more torturous than anything, even being fat.

i still don't have my cable. pfft.

today I'm battling a splitting headache and rapid temperature change.
one moment I'm fever free, another moment I'm running a 39 degrees Celsius fever.
my head feels like bob the builder and his crew decided to visit..
I'm already sick of being sick.
but the good thing about this is that I've lost quite a bit of weight..
tts if my scales are accurate....
woohoo!
there is nothing nice to watch on tv and megavideo is anal.
supernovatube is down and those are the major places the latest tv series are found.
so life's really boring.
not that I'm awake much.
matt brought my keyboard back today and some herbal drinks...
I am too lazy to set up my keyboard though.
I want to eat watermelon, fried chicken, sushi, orh lua...
anything but porridge and plain tasting food.
I want to go out shopping, enjoying myself, hanging out with friends...
maybe tmw...

I CANNOTS BELIEFS THAT I MIZZED BEN AND JEWWY'S CHUNK FEST.
SADZ.
sigh.
I remember going for free cone day 2 years ago even with a fever.
but today was just terrible.
head spinning
head splitting headache
fever of about 38.4
I just slept the whole day away
randomly waking up to talk to people online..
sorry for the lack of pictures...
I actually have pictures to upload
but my sister lost my cable.
So I can't post pics till I get a new one.
or till she finds it.
I should blog about how wonderful her table is..
It's this massive hill of everything..
clothes, papers, files, envelopes, packages...
I'm getting boring arent I.
I hope I'm better by tmw.
I have a ton of things to do.
I want this dog.

credits, blushing apples.

I'M BACK!
I haven't touched a soft surface since tuesday and it feels SO GOOD to just SIT on my bed.
Even though I'm really tired, I'm not going to sleep till 7 at least.
The past few days have been REALLY challenging.
But I really REALLY thank God for this camp com.
even though planning was horribly painful in some ways, the running of the camp was (in my opinion) flawless.
Everyone knew what they had to do at what time.
I think going to teach in MG for 4 months before the camp was also in God's plan.
Even though my throat felt like it was about to give way, I DID NOT LOSE MY VOICE.
screaming at a class of 40 chatty girls 5 days a week for 4 months have strengthened my larynx.
maybe because no matter how much I shouted I couldn't lose my voice, the devil decided to use other ways.
fever, hives and swelling of the lymph nodes.
getting through camp was harder when I had to deal with all that.
But the camp com was really supportive and that helped alot :)
walter sent me to the docs,
they all watched out for me...
my group also prayed for me and that was really nice :)
Some of the committee members were saying it is a spiritual attack seeing I was in charge of the spiritual direction and QT and all...
God won in the end.
TAKE THAT.
God pwn the devil.
noob.

so today and tmw, my plan is to get well.

now that the update is done, it's ranting time.
I found out alot of things during camp.
1. some people can be really spoilt and it gets on my nerves. If you come for camp, don't expect it to be a holiday resort. If you aren't going to participate in the games for fear of getting dirty, expect to sleep till 12pm everyday, and expect the food to be restaurant standard, DON'T COME. go home spoilt brat.

2. I know you are tired and so what? I AM TOO. in fact, I'M EVEN MORE TIRED. I get less hours of sleep a day than you and I run around half the time while you just sit there looking pretty. so don't give me attitude. I'm not going to take it and I don't owe you ANYTHING.

3. Not everyone is going to let you have your way all the time. And it just so happens that this is the way things are. so just chill and move on.

4. I made it seem like it just so happened to be like that. but in reality, no one wanted to room with you.

5. I missed the gathering with the NUS ppl today and I'm actually really upset cause they are the only group in which I love EVERY SINGLE PERSON.

done. ( I think.)

this morning I woke up to like 86930285 msges.
amazing.
I never felt so popular.
but then I realised, the more msges I have, the more work I have.
so not having time to eat breakfast, I started work.
till about 12, then I had tao hui.
Went to church and a whole lot of screw ups and drama
I had lunch at 4.30pm.
which was kinda dumb because I knew dinner was going to be at 6 plus 7...
but how can you resist bah kut teh when you havent had lunch??
Dinner was filling and awesome.
The rice table is a great place.
I ate so much even though I was still full from dinner.
YOUTH CAMP IN 11 HOURS!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I have to go to far east tmw and I REALISED THAT TMW'S TUESDAY.
tuesday means... HALF PRICE WAFFLES! AWESOME!
I love you people!
see you again in 4 days and 3 nights.

happy birthday to koon and Joel Tan the monkey!