Sometimes I feel like putting a 'discussion topic' on my blog..
but I'm scared no one will reply.
And then I'll just look dumb asking a question thinking people will reply but no one does.
I'm insecure like that.

Still a lil' bit ill

The flu came back yesterday and I felt terrible for the whole day :(
This morning I woke up to a huge headache.
I even dreamt about having the headache and taking panadol for it in my dream.
I remember dreaming about having to eat bread with olive oil
and the waiter stared at me for using my hands because I was suppose to use my fork and knife.

So neewayz, today my mom and I checked out the clearance sale at the Bukit Timah Courts to look for a new couch.
Our couch is peeling and in SERIOUS NEED for a replacement.
They were actually pretty cheap but being clearance, there was a very limited range available to choose from.
The very nice looking ones were either still at cut throat prices or not very comfy,
and the very comfy and cheap ones were very gaudy.
I even thought of the possibility of just buying a cheap comfy gaudy couch and then buying a really really large piece of nice fabric to throw over the couch.
That way, we get the comfort without having to face the gaudy prints.
AND washing the 'covers' would be much much easier.
but mom wasn't convinced.
I don't know why I just wrote all that because it wasn't even interesting.

I found out just a few hours ago that I have a day off tomorrow!
This is too unexpected.
I am at a loss as to what to do.
I feel a bit empty, not having work.
But I'll find something to do.
And it's probably a good thing too.
Some time for me to recuperate and hopefully get rid of this ill spell for good.
I could probably wash the car, then clean the house again, then go grocery shopping, then bake, then hope that that has taken up the whole day.
See?
I just thought about all of that like JUST JUST.
so awesome right? :)

Saturday chores.

So it's just about 12 noon and I've more or less finished what I set out to do today.
I've magic cleaned the entire house twice,
and magic clean wet wiped the entire house once,
cleared the bins,
gave the toilet a good scrub,
changed the sheets,
put in the laundry to wash,
replaced all the dehumidifiers in the cupboards,
took a really nice well deserved shower,
and now I'm waiting for the laundry to be done so I can hang it up.
I'm thinking if I should wash the car
but it's been raining quite a bit lately
and that has kept the car fairly clean I must say..
but I do feel like giving it a good shampoo.
maybe I'll keep that for next week.
Cleaning the house has become my workout routine.
And I love it :)
I'm going to reward myself with an episode of the mentalist
and then the laundry should be ready :)

Oh how emo.

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You fall in love, it’s intoxicating, and for a little while you feel like you’ve actually become one with the other person. Merged souls, and so on. You think you’ll never be lonely again. Only it doesn’t last and soon you realize you can only get so close, and you end up brutally disappointed, more alone than ever, because the illusion—the hope you’d held on to all those years—has been shattered.
Man Walks into a Room by Nicole Krauss via Quote Book

The busier the better

The weather today is seriously insane.
It started pouring the minute I came home but after less than a minute, it stopped!
And it was sunny and very hot just like before.
Then after a while, it poured AGAIN,
and after another 20 minutes, it stopped AGAIN
and the sun is AS HOT AS EVER.
this is mad.

anyway,
My work schedule just got EVEN BUSIER.
I now work till 7 TWICE a week.
It totally sounds like I'm such a slacker because normal people work so many more hours than I do on average.
BUT my work is much more INTENSE k.
so it's different.
it's still good though.
less time to bum around and be useless :)

:(

It's midweek and I've sort of somehow fallen into a slump.
I've been feeling moody a lot.
too much actually.
I don't like it at all.
but it should get better...
because I'm going to be a little busier starting next week and hence less free time to allow myself to slump
and this weekend is going to be filled with lots of prayer :)
Now, I probably just need a good shower.

Sick of Sick.

I'm quite sick of being sick.
I don't want to be coughing or sniffing or nursing a splitting headache any more.
It's hindering with my life and I don't like it.
Tomorrow will be my stay home day.
Hopefully it'll work towards me getting better.
Fingers crossed!

One.

To my bestestest friend,

Thanks for making everything so awesome :)

SURVIVOR

I survived the worst day ever.
I sent Leah to school then got a bit lost on the way to church,
got stuck in a jam,
was half an hour late for cell,
couldn't park in church because of some wedding,
had to put a $4 coupon,
tore the coupon wrongly because I keep forgetting there is a difference with AM and PM..
(at this point I totally hated who ever the bride and groom were)
I'm glad I went for cell though because we had a really good time.
The kids (who are really no longer kids) were so awesome.
I couldn't find a better bunch of people.
Rehearsal was really short too but either the music was too loud or I was just very woozy at that point because it felt like how I usually do when I am about to blackout.

but all that is over and done with.
Tomorrow, I'm opting for a day in.
After church and the usual stuff, I'm heading straight home and staying home.

I just need to whine a bit.

I woke up at 6.30am this morning even though I only went to bed after 1am last night (or this morning)
and I really couldn't sleep any more.
I know I didn't really have much sleep because I woke up a lot during the five hours
There is a dull ache at the back of my head that is probably the remnant of the week long headache.
My nose is pretty much congested, my eyes are all puffy and my throat is a little sore.
I feel like taking what's left of the sleeping pill quen's mom gave me and sleep the day away.
But I have to lead cell later and go for rehearsal.
Good thing Pastor Edwin isn't preaching tmw because I think I might just blackout if I have to stand up there for the whole service.
ok.
I'm done whining.
I am going to see if I can catch more sleep within the next two hours before everything starts.

Eye candy

(Silva/Bradshaw jewelery)

How pretty are these!?!

it.

What's new?

let's see.........
A CAR! :D
I can now sleep up to an hour longer on workdays,
I can go for SUPPERS,
and I can drive the boyfriend around :)
so awesome.

Everyone is so excited.
And my dad is so impressed.
He was impressed with the remote control car lock, the radio control buttons on the steering wheel, and the apparently 'very cool' appearance of the car.
It was entertaining seeing how he was so surprised by all the tiny things the majority of us take for granted.
My mom and Leah went down with wet wipes and started to clean the whole car interior..

No pictures today because it's dark out and I won't be able to take any now
but soon :)
wheee!

If you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.

I was just talking to one of my ex colleagues and realised that if I stayed on in the company, I would be a week away from a year.
It's pretty amazing that I've been working for almost a year but I'm still super not used to working.
I guess it's because my schedule isn't fixed so I keep having to adjust but this whole work thing still feels very fresh and new.
It also made me think about how things would be so different now if I had stayed on in the company.
I would be so far from where I am now, and not in a good way.
I wouldn't have gotten my driver's license,
I would probably be really cranky now
I would have been working on saturdays for A YEAR,
I probably wouldn't have continued to lead cell
I probably would have cut down on my service in church by a considerable amount..
I wouldn't be this happy.
But if I didn't take the job in the first place, I wouldn't be where I am now either.

This just shows how amazing God is.
When He says His plans are the best, He means it :)

Valentine's day

I have been feeling very much under the weather since yesterday
and it's awful to have to spend valentine's day with a splitting headache and a constant feeling of nausea.
I gave this morning's session a miss because I didn't get any sleep last night due to the headache.
Even though I took 6 painkillers over the course of the night, my headache did not leave me for a single moment.
I only managed to fall asleep for a couple of hours in the morning when my body was probably too tired to care about the pain.
I vomited yesterday's lunch, dinner and this morning's breakfast and a bit of today's lunch..
but I feel a little better!
I have upgraded to panadol EXTRA
And I haven't puked for the past 8 hours :)

We spent valentine's day in the most un-valentine's day manner ever :)
Went car shopping,
ate at Botak Jones,
we watched a movie BUT it wasn't a romantic comedy..
FAR from a romantic comedy actually..
but still a good movie :)
No gifts, no fancy restaurants, no fancy pansy stuff.
Just very very good company.
Just how I like it :)

Crazy.

This week has been pretty crazy.
Never have I ever worried so much, cried so much, forced myself to withstand so much, missed so much, hated myself so much, questioned God so much, prayed so much and learned so much in a week.
I'm thankful it's almost over.
I really don't want to go through it again.
Although I know there would be many more like it.
I do know it's because of this crazy week that I've grown that much more :)

Whether the weather be hot

THE WEATHER IS CRAZY.
This afternoon was crazy hot.
Like seriously burning kind of hot.
Then SUDDENLY, it started POURING LIKE MAD.
and the wind was SO STRONG that my supposedly typhoon-safe umbrella bought specially from hong kong couldn't even withstand it.
The thunder is deafening and all I see is rain.
like seriously.
I can hardly see the tree that is right in front of the window.

It's so cold now.
It's days like these I wish I had something warm to cuddle up on the couch with.
I need to get that cat... (doubles up as a lizard catcher)
or maybe an electric blanket.

A Woman of No Importance, Oscar Wilde

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Men always want to be a woman’s first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We women have a more subtle instinct about things. What we like is to be a man’s last romance.

Just a thought

On the way home I was just thinking about what I would do with a whole day of rest.
On one hand, I would love to just stay home and bum and watch drama after drama or nothing in particular at all.
Laze around at home,
drift in and out of sleep the whole day
But I always end up baking or cleaning when I decide to stay home and bum.
I feel like a pig after a while and too much sleep sometimes gives me a headache.
Even the internet gets boring after a while...

The other option is to go out,
sit at some quaint little cafe with a good book and read and people watch.
but that never happens either.
Because it's either read OR people watch.
You really cannot do both.
My brain is just not able to retain the story for long enough to be able to absolutely enjoy the book AND people watch at the same time.
The other option is to read a magazine instead of a book..
that way I don't have to retain anything..
but that only lasts me an hour or two at the most.
then I'll have to move somewhere else or do something else...
because I'd have finish the magazine and feel bad about sitting there for too long.
But a magazine doesn't really give it the same feel...
and on top of that, there really isn't a good place anywhere in Singapore to sit and people watch anyway.

I really don't think I would be able to handle a whole day of nothing very well.
It's a good thing that isn't happening in the near future.

I really want this book.

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Chocolate pancake day

(via 5 second rule)

Today has been such a day that I feel the need for a stack of warm CHOCOLATE pancakes...
because normal ones just won't do.
I'm glad it's over.
though it wasn't all that bad.
I really enjoyed my afternoon session..
but this morning was enough to warrant the chocolate.
On the way from my morning to my afternoon session I sat in the lrt/train/taxi staring into space and let my mine drift a little.
I just popped 5 chocolate raisins into my mouth.
I feel a tad bit better :)
I might just make those chocolate pancakes if I don't get too lazy.

Monday blues clues

It was particularly difficult waking up for work this morning.
Not only did I have to wake up,
this morning's session was pushed earlier because my client needed to leave for something in the afternoon.
So had to be up half an hour earlier than usual.
WHICH made things even worse.
I slept most of the journey there, AND most of the journey back..
good thing I only had one session today
so I could come home and crash right after.
which was what I did...
for two hours.
Despite the drilling due to my neighbour's renovation works,
I slept for two whole hours.
had super duper weird dreams involving a road trip to THAILAND and my mom saying taking the BUS from THAILAND only takes THREE HOURS.
and woke up in the most awkward position.
My neck is aching so much now.
But my body feels like I have caught up more or less on the sleep I needed :)
Going back to work after any form of holiday is the hardest EVER.

The Annual CNY Awards

Best New Snack: Chinese Arrowroot chips

Apparently it has been around for a while but I've only got to taste it this year.
It redefines chips.
I love tapioca chips more than potato chips but sometimes they can be a little to hard on the teeth.
These chips taste like tapioca chips but have the crispiness of potato chips.
Best of both worlds: the taste I prefer PLUS the texture I prefer.
They are so finely cut that they make such a light snack.
I could eat a whole container of this if I didn't have a conscience telling me I shouldn't finish the whole container on my own..especially when it isn't mine to begin with :P

Most neglected CNY snack: Bak Kwa
We only can blame the ridiculously high prices of Bak Kwa this year.
I haven't had ANY Bak Kwa the whole CNY.

The snack that has at least two different versions in every house: Pineapple tarts
Pineapple tarts this year also seem to be bigger.
There was a particularly huge one I saw today.
It was as big as a golf ball.

Most frequently asked question: How old are you now?
This one cheated a little because one of my grandaunts asked me this question 5 times in the 20 or so minutes we were there.

Most frequently heard comment: If I see you outside, I won't be able to recognize you
The oldies say this to EVERYONE.
Just 5 minutes after my grandaunt said that to me, another family came and I heard it again.

Most Overdone event: Steamboat.

I had four this CNY.
Two steamboat dinners on CNY eve (first from 5-7pm, second from 8-9.30pm)
Then I had it for lunch on the second day AND dinner ALSO on the second day.
not funny.
three of them were charcoal powered and I still cannot get the smell of it out of my hair :(

Worst thing ever: the rented car
How do I even begin to explain.
1. It smells like a very horrible mix of cigarettes and old dirty car.
2. We found a opened bag of chips stuffed in one of the seat pockets.
3. The food obviously would attract insects and we spotted a baby cockroach.
4. There are used wet tissues stuffed in the car seat handles
5. The seatbelt is frayed ttm.
6. THE AIRCON DOES NOT WORK. IT BLOWS OUT HOT AIR.
7. We have to top up water somewhere in the car engine every morning because it is apparently leaking.
8. IT IS SUPER DIRTY. Leah and I started breaking out in rash today.
9. I feel itchy just thinking about it.
10. It drinks guzzles/inhales petrol.

I need to get one soon so we can stop this nonsense of renting a car from dad's BARBER (yes. I'm not joking.)

Chinese New Year Pop Quiz

What is the most common question/comment heard from relatives during CNY? (4 Marks)

1) Eat alrealy?
2) wah now so tall/vely pleety ah.
3) Got boyfwen not now?
4) What is the flight velocity of an african sparrow? ( )

Chinese New Year

I AM SO FULL I AM GOING TO DIE.
TWO steamboat dinners in one night is not funny at all.
I don't even know how I even managed to sit for both.
Next time I'll have to ration my stomach space.
I don't feel like eating for the rest of my life.
I am that full.

ANYWAY, IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR!
which means holiday, ang paos and food.
The holiday means so much more to me this year because they are harder to come by.
And it really rocks to sort of get paid even when you don't work :)
I drove a whole lot today and I have come to the conclusion that I like being the passenger more than being the driver..
It is much much more relaxing.
And so Leah is going to be the official driver for the next three days of visitations.
I am going to take a shower then rub my stomach in hopes it will help the food digest at lighting speed.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :)