the wallet saga

11am: scholarship application status: rejected
1pm: punkanated
1am: hives outbreak
4am: still awake trying to find antihistamine
5am: finally sleeping
weird dream with twisted body of a young girl, a pile of bloody bodies, 4 strange men chasing me down sixth avenue
8am: stupid neighbour and their fat asses
10am: call from Royston "I am in the hospital cause Verine is about to pop"
12pm: finally out of bed
12.30: realises my WALLET IS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!
12.31: PANIC
1.30pm: go to KAP with leah who is nice enough to treat me to a hamburger
2.15pm: do laundry, print chord sheet, things to bring list, sweep floor, pack house.
3.50pm: hang laundry
4pm: open front door and surprise! cupcakes, ipod charger, a box of antihistamine, floss.
4.20pm: bubble tea treat, realise I never bring phone -.-
4.40pm: rehearsal starts
6pm: rehearsal ends, wait for ben to come to open his office so I can see if my wallet is in there
7pm: Ben finally arrives. WALLET FOUND.
7.30pm: back home. leftover spaghetti for dinner.

it's been a long day.

AWESOME night :)
body combat, supper, star gazing, heart to heart talk..
I just wanted to blog to remember this forever.

I think all the rush and busyness is slowly getting to me.
ARGH.
anyway, Art and crafts today with the Home was fulfilling.
they were so happy painting and sprinkling glitter...
like little kids they were.
this little old woman had a doll in her arms and she wanted to stick some sequins onto her doll...
I had a hard time talking her out of it, trying to explain that the glue will not hold.
and then there was this cute old man who started dancing to the christmas carols they were playing and he urged the helpers to dance with him..
sometimes I think that life there is so much better than what we have to face out here.
emokid forming.
I need a cup of tea, a good friend talk and a body combat session.

mid week rant.

can I say that I think that gmail's new idea of letting us have different themes is like the BEST IDEA EVER?
I chose the tea place thingy and the picture at the bottom changes as time passes.
I AM AMUSED.
now, the fox is having some sort of a japanese bento dinner and there are chicks at his doorstep pecking on corn bits.
KAWAII NEH!

I ended up not baking on tuesday.
Rather, I spent the whole day slacking and watching japanese dramas.
At about 12pm today, I realised that I could have gone down to the Home to help in BINGO again since rehearsal was cancelled.
pfft.
I'm going to be a punk rockstar by friday afternoon.
EXCITES.

on another note, there has been this current craze about BB creams.
I bought a couple to try.
I've only tried like one of the two so far: Toc Toc BB cream (yes. jap stuff have the wierdest names)
and I am pleased.
for guys who are uninterested in makeup grooming, you can stop reading.
This makeup base is pretty tricky to use at first.. you can look really white if you put too much.
especially since most of them come in shades that only tofu skin coloured ppl (ie fair japs) can use.
but in Sunny Singapore, where ppl who try to remain fair are still tanner than our japanese counterparts, it is definitly not our shade.
but applied in correct amounts, this is amazing.
It holds everything in place even after sweat (due to the hot and humid Singapore weather and having to take public transport and walk and jump and run and all that).
I personally don't put a WHOLE lot,
but it holds my concealer and loose powder perfectly.
It's a small bottle but it'll probably last a long time since all I need is a pearl sized amount for my whole face plus neck.
you should put it on the neck since it's lighter than your skin colour and you don't want to look like a wayang actress.
amazed, and somewhat addicted.

ok. now I just made an entry worthy of a beauty blog.
heh.
sorry guys.
maybe next time I'll blog about some rad computer game.
or maybe not.

ok. I'm not used to the new Lydia.
Yesterday she cooked for us all and today she's doing the laundry??
just cause mummy's away she thinks she should do all the chores..
which is all good cause I totally don't mind.
but the thing is, I have to clean up after her...
I found an unwashed pot yesterday which smelled like crap
and today when she did the laundry she didn't take all the clothes.
and she only loaded half the load but didn't press the half load button.
water wastage and I have to do the laundry again.
too much washing powder for too little clothes.
somehow, we always find stuff to complain about don't we.. heh.

UPSET.
I have to go for the retreat cause Qing Ying cannot make it :(
I thought I could escape that..
I'm now taking her place and rooming with two people who are not exactly my type of company
AHHHHHHH.
so much for escaping. blegh.
I shall bake tmw.

the lizard saga

*enters lizard with the long wriggly tail, jumping, yes jumping across the curtains.*

Amelia: AHHHH!!! LIZARD!
Sumit (on msn): ?
Amelia: SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!! IN MY ROOM SUMMORE!
Sumit: eww u dont clean ur room one right
Amelia: I DO! ITS ON THE CURTAINS!!GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!
Sumit: call leah. maybe she can do something
Amelia: It JUMPS! SHE WILL SCREAM WITH ME!! tts what she'll do. i hope it crawls OUT of my room.the tail is like WAGGING.
Sumit: grow up la. u've dealt with bigger sleaze bags in ur life. (so out of point la! and hello. I'M the one who has to deal with stupid lizards.)
Sumit: it'll go away =) relaxxxxx
Amelia: I managed to chase it to the door post. should I smash it?
Sumit: no. all life is precious to God.
Amelia:but then it'll be crawling around
Sumit:it'll go away. it's more scared of u than u are of it.
*lizard finally crawls out of the room*
Amelia: ok. It's gone. my door is closed. YESSSSSS.
Sumit: see? all u need to do was chill and give it time.
Amelia: no. i had to use my swiss flag to scare it in the direction of the door. it was about to come to my bed.
Sumit: y do u have a swiss flag?
Amelia: cause I went to switzerland
Sumit: poor switzerland
Amelia: what?!? How about poor MEEEEE.

I HATE lizards.

Lydia's luggage got delayed so today was luggage opening day.
I got to see the item of LUST.

Her Loewe bag.

and then there were other random items like a VS curler which she bought because it was cheap, some ugly ass billabong bag that also was purchased because it was cheap, but the ULTIMATE RANDOM ITEM.....

INFLATABLE GUITAR.

now we can play air guitar (inflatable=air geddit?? heh.)

and Mr Lim was the lucky recipient of.....

a BULL'S TAIL.
yes you heard it right.

a very happy yangshen with the bull's tail.

Last year I was waiting for my exams to be over..
This year I'm waiting for my friends' exams to be over!!!
I TOTALLY miss studying with them..
Currently, if taking exams means being able to study with the crazy bunch again, I probably would agree to it.
going for gym alone just isn't fun...
I miss the music lib :)

Because of how things have worked out, my plans for December may be changed entirely..
I'm kinda happy too..
I'm just hoping that Qing Ying has no assessment during the week of the retreat and everything will be perfect.
anyway, I have missed gym for the most part of this week. my last gym session was last saturday so I HAVE to go today and tmw.. if not I'll feel horrible.
Next week is another hectic week where I have rehearsal on monday and a gig sorta thing on wed and POTS on friday... so gyming is only available to me on tues, thursday and sat. which is ok I guess....
This week was indeed the horriblest(this apparently is a valid word. there is no red line under it!!) week ever.
and with everyone coming back and asking to go out and eat the most unhealthy things, this is not helping.
not that I don't want to eat those things..
I haven't had prata in a while anyway..
excitement starts at 8.

camp.first words.10 years.confession.closer.misunderstanding.upset.awkward.talk.much better.much stronger.much sweeter. warm feeling.plans.hunger.surprises at the door.uncontrollable smiles.bursting from the inside.

I don't want to wake up and realise this is all a dream.

BINGO!

today was my first ever volunteering day at Bukit Batok home for the Aged.
We played BINGO!
The old ppl there are so cute.
They got so excited when they found out that they get coffee and milo and maggie mee for prizes..
Some old people thought I was Filipino, some thought I was Eurasian.
NO ONE asked me if I was chinese.
WHY!
Maybe cause my chinese was really bad.
I had alot of fun helping the old people find the number on their Bingo card and listening to them tell me that their mother is malay while their father is eurasian and they can speak chinese.
There was this very handsome old man who would probably have been the school's heart throb during his time.
I have to wait till next thursday to see them again though :(
but it'll be Arts and Crafts!
sounds fun already :)
I had to miss my Cotton On interview for this but it was worth it.

I had a weird dream/nightmare.
It was a good mix of both.
I dreamt that I was on my way to school with some people even though I didn't want to be there
When we entered NUS, I saw Quen drive out
So I msged him to stop where he was and pick me up so I could go home instead of stay with these ppl in NUS.
But that was a BIG MISTAKE
BECAUSE.....
Quen was some psycho killer who made people kill on his behalf and tts how he avoided being caught.
I don't remember the details (cause I think I was manipulated by quen and my mind avoids thinking about it somehow)
and then I was chased by this psycho hugger or something which was extremely disturbing
but what is MOST disturbing is I remember vaguely during this dream that I've dreamt it before but with a different psycho killer.
then while I was running away from the psycho hugger who tried to wear the same colour as me but I trumped him by wearing purple which somehow was against his values cause he would never do anything that would make him look gay in any way
and then I was suddenly discussing carbon isotopes with Hannah (Joseph's sister)
and my sister was talking about having a pet duckling
and I was in some bathroom looking at a duckling swim in the sink
When I came out from the toilet, I was in a house that I've never seen before
but it was strangely familiar.
I had a sleepover with my cell group..
and I remember Walter complaining about only having one pillow and stealing Mark's pillow instead...
my bed had the best comforter ever which felt something like the one I have in real life..
A dream about sleeping is somewhat intriguing.
Then my cousins and a whole lot of other people came over while walter was still in the midst of his complains and I was suppose to leave cause my sis and I were suppose to surprise our grandma that we were there.
I don't know why.
But I'm awake at 7am because I ran out but was discovered and chased by my grandma out of the house.
what a long and eventful dream.
I woke up feeling scared.
and my legs felt like jelly.
but ok.
I guess none of this can compare to the one I had about Ronald Mcdonalds taking over the world.

tmw's going to be a long day.
8-9: last min rehearsals and sound check
9-10.30: youth service
11-12.30: 11am service
1-2.30: meeting with ben and scott
2.30-5: youth camp meeting
5-6.30: secret meeting
7.30: dinner/supper with sumit.

I hope everything goes well.

I was upset when Zac from the drama series Bones was actually a criminal.
He was the one I liked the most in that series..
I seem to like the nerdiest of the lots in english drama series.
Zac from Bones, Spencer from Criminal Minds, Greg from CSI Las Vegas....
Anyway, I couldn't sleep till 4 plus last night.
I think I've had enough of emo boys and their problems that are too big that they don't want to trouble us by sharing it with us girls, but on the other hand they are sitting there being emo and upset and so I get affected as well because we cannot communicate normally because the whatever problem that you cannot talk about is making you so emo and your face is all sulky and black.
ARGH.
November is a tough month don't you think?
this year is ending soon and Christmas is coming.
I shall resolve to spend more time with girl friends and less time with emo boys.
Life's too short to be emo.

less than one month of this RUBBISH and I'm done.
I'm MORE than done.
After searching like mad for a speaker for the older youth camp, they come back to me and say: oh. we cannot use him because blah blah blah. Just tell him we were just checking the AVAILABILITY of the speaker.
Now, After everything is settled for the younger youth's camp, they come back again saying: There are TOO MANY speakers and we should use Dr Steve for the first night.
WHO in the right mind would ask a speaker(whom you have stated in the first place to be so hard to get and REALLY BUSY) to come down for a speaker session that isn't even a full speaker session?
It's suppose to be a short session done by one of our own people. but NO. some people have their own ideas and so they 'ASK' if we should do it that way.
When we say no, we are bombarded with reasons why we should be and discussion only stops when we agree.
So I say: We shall just CHECK HIS AVAILABILITY FIRST.

I cannot stand this much longer.
all this is driving me absolutely INSANE.
this is why I'm thinking of NEVER COMING BACK.

I need a body combat session NOW.

First visit to the Bukit Batok Home for the Aged

Went to Bukit Batok Home for the Aged..
It's a really small facility filled with homeless old people who have no family.
It's really different from normal old folks homes cause these people really come from off the street.
When I entered, I saw this old man sitting at the table alone trying to piece together a wooden structure..
In front of him was already a small wooden cupboard, and a swing.
He looked so contented musing over that simple art project,
I could almost see the 6 year old in him...
They have makeovers twice a month for the old ladies there...
so cute.
They also have cooking sessions and it is rumored that they use their own home grown chili in their dishes.. yum.
They have this small place dedicated to rehabilitation and therapy and the music blasting out of the stereo is nothing but the latest rock and pop music.
they even have their own hair salon..
I can't wait to start :)
They are looking for more volunteers so if you want to join me on thursday afternoons, let me know :)
I'm thinking of bringing my CG there once to do some arts and crafts with the old people...
They have more male residents than female residents...
so that does seem to suggest that women are more able to live and survive alone... heh.
yay to females!

Chocolate chip cookies..

yum.
Tuesday seems to be baking day for me...
baking is like the only thing I do that seems useful now.
tmw I'm going to see the supervisor of bukit batok home for the aged though..
So that would be another useful thing I'll be doing with my life and time :)
medical checkup today.
Sometimes I think it'll be cool if they found something wrong with me..
like worms in my stomach or something..

I just asked matt a question I don't really know whether I want to know the answer to.
Sometimes I really put myself in a spot.
oh well.
I have the whole week to prepare myself for the answer.
We were suppose to meet tonight but I decided I wanted my body combat session.
I have lot of negative energy to purge tonight. (ref: deb's blog)
Some air's going to get hurt REAL BAD.

Everything will be okay in the end.

After last week's drama I thought it was all over.
BUT APPARENTLY NOT.
another drama unfolds.
This is probably the most eventful time of my life.
With God's help, I'm going to get through this.

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
we will wait upon the Lord,
we WILL wait upon the Lord.

have I ever said that I hated politics.
well,
I HATE POLITICS.
In this one short month, I have had to face too much of it.
And I believe it's the one thing that makes ppl hate each other.
I have had just about enough of it.
I've done all I could and I'm washing my hands off of it all.
settle it yourself.

I applied to work at Cotton On and Ben & Jerry's.
I got a reply from Cotton On to go for an interview but I'm thinking I don't really want to go cause I also applied to do volunteer work at Bukit Batok Home of the Aged.
and town to Bukit Batok is not fun.
I was passing Island Creamery today and was thinking how nearby it was and everything
but all the things attached to working there is not nice.
I don't know what I'm doing with my life for the next 3 weeks and it really bothers me somehow.
3 weeks of bumming around makes me think of myself as being very useless.

I keep getting these nasty headaches.
today didn't go very nicely cause I was made to think about things that I really didn't feel like thinking about.
And then I felt really bad that I kept avoiding the need to think about them.
currently, I am so unsure of many things in my life.
Some times I just want people to serve things to me and not give me a choice.
having no choice sometimes seems so much easier.

oh.and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JX!

The Answer

I believe You are the answer to every tear I’ve cried,
I believe that you are with me,
My rising and my light.
Give me strength when I am weary,
Give me hope when I can’t see

Through the crosses I must carry
Lord bind my heart to thee.
That when all my days are over,
And all my chores are done
I may see Your risen glory for ever where you are

you know, I thought that after I finish studying, I would have no more problems and worries...
but these few months have been even more trying, even harder.
but these few months, I've also seen God's AWESOMENESS (my FAVOURITE WORD of ALL TIME) even more :)
and yes. for the 84765083rd time, I should really find some job to do...
sitting at home is not beneficial at all.

OATMEAL COOKIES!

I SUCCEEDED!! WOOHOO!
FORTY wonderful oatmeal cookies :)
SO today I succeeded in laying around less.
I actually woke up at 10.30AM to start my wonderful baking.
don't ask me why I woke up so early.
I don't know why.
ANYWAY, I woke up so early and I was done with all the baking by 2 in the afternoon.
and I spent the rest of the day LAYING AROUND watching random movies.
I managed to catch BRATZ.
hahaha... typical teenage girl movie.
going for fellowship soon!
all the lucky ppl who come for fellowship today get a taste of my freshly baked cookies! :)
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today I was very useless.
I lay in bed till my curly hair became straight.
SERIOUS.
when I finally got up to go to the gym (the only active thing I did all day), my hair was back to what it was before.
this is freaking scary.
tmw I shall be more useful.
I plan to bake oatmeal cookies :)
I hope i'm successful.
The last time I did cookies, I had 3 trays of almost burnt and burnt, and one tray of nice cookies.
blegh.
I enjoy body combat when my fav instructor, kevin is teaching.
entertaining canz.
today the tai tais and him started dancing in the middle of body combat
they also did stuff like pretend they were gorillas cause the music went HOO HOO HOO.
can't wait for thursday's class! :) heh.

post number 300

yipee.
I had a whole list of things I had to do after I came home from church today
BUT INSTEAD, I spent the whole evening changing my icons
after about 4 hours of work (it's addictive) I am still not satisfied.
I can't seem to find a nice icons for certain applications and its driving me nuts.
lalalalalalaaaa...
I am getting myself involved in all the camps and what not only cause I have no work and I need to do something.
Scott said something about becoming a singtel roadshow person but I don't think it's really my kinda thing..
I was thinking more along the lines of scooping ice cream, or waitressing, or working in some retail place....
though I first have to motivate myself to go out and look for jobs.
ugly betty rocks.
I love floppy, squishy and soft things.
maybe tts why I love flipflops.
I think Lee Hom is really cute.
but I think no one should ever have glitter in their hair.
not even if they are Lee Hom kind of cute.

blessed.