How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.
-Psalm 13

AND SO... DAY THREE OF DETOX.
I started on monday night (dinner) hence I ended with lunch today.
So breakfast and lunch was plums and salad.
Dinner was a all out CELEBRATION OF THE END OF THIS.
I had sushi with my YMLC group.
It's amazing we still meet regularly for meals and to catch up :)

AND SO I got my sushi fix.
Though half our things were deep fried.
And cass brought us to this wondrous world of waffles, hidden in suntec city
I have a feeling I'll be back there again soon.
So much for detox.
In just one dinner
I'm back to where I started.

DAY TWO OF DETOX (AMAZING!)

1 cup of avocado and honey
1 guava
3 strawberries
16 oz. of banana juice
1 garden salad
a handful of almonds

when I was climbing up the stairs to my home
I felt like I was DYING.
I THOUGHT I'M SUPPOSE TO FEEL LIGHTER AND MORE ENERGETIC!
ITS DAY TWO!
WHERE IS MY LIGHT AND ENERGY!
pok.
the website lied to me.
All this detox is doing is making me pee and crap more than ever.

DAY 1 OF DETOX (yes I succeeded)

2 bananas
16oz of watermelon juice
16oz of banana juice
A handful of almonds
1 bowl of house salad from munchie monkeys (here I feel I cheated a bit because I used honey mustard dressing. oh well.)
A WHOLE LOT of water

Surprisingly, I did not feel hungry much.
I peed a lot
2 more days to go!!!

HOW COME WE DIDN'T GET TO HAVE A PILLOWFIGHT ON THE 22ND OF MARCH WHEN IT WAS INTERNATIONAL PILLOW FIGHT DAY?
HUH? HUH?
must be Mas Selamat's fault.

so much for detox.
This morning I had guava and I thought I could definitely stand it.
BUT.
two hours later
I'm munching on mini pork floss rolls.
there goes my fruit detox.
I need fuel to think anyway.
I have essays to write.
I will try again tmw...

The bridge of sighs DID NOT look this good when I was there.
I do wish that I had appreciated the trip to switzerland and italy more..
I was just counting down the days once it reached the 3rd day.
I'm never very good at tours.
And now, I find out I was actually at one of the most beautiful bridges...

worship was awesome today.
It felt like I was celebrating the resurrection at the very first easter.
The joy, the excitement, the dancing, the music, the praise...
the skin on my thumb got rubbed off when I ran down the keys but I didnt even feel a thing till I stopped..
worship for an awesome God is always awesome.

Thank You, Lord for this gift.
Really, Thank You.
:)

CG outing was fun fun fun.. as always.
It was suppose to be an outreach event.
but it turned out that no one other than our cg came.
other than mich's bf who wasn't new to us anyway.
I can't wait for tmw!
Finally some exercise.
woot!
The only bad thing is that its wakeboarding.
My body's not in shape to be in a swimming costume. hahahaha..
but oh well.
Wee koh beats us all anytime.
heh. so evil.
CAN'T WAIT!! :)

YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED IN SCHOOL TODAY?!?!

Rachel and I were strolling to lecture and then we saw this group of students looking at some pipe where the rain water was gushing out from..
being normal curious singaporeans, we stopped to stare for a bit
and then, out of the blue (or the wet water) A SNAKE APPEARED!
my hair stood on its ends.
It was black with yellow spots on its body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAN!
too bad I didn't manage to take a picture of it.
I was too in shock.
but it was exciting.
very exciting.

Mummy told me I am to go on a three day detox.
Only fruits for 3 days.
Though she didn't say start from when.
I dunno why.
Maybe she sees that I'm fatter.
Or something.
I dunno how this is beneficial.
I think a 3 day detox from shopping would be more beneficial.
heh.
THREADLESS SALE!!! WOOT!

I suddenly miss the little girl in the picture.
I met her when we went to switzerland..
and we built the snowman with her
she made us three think of riddles and jokes to tell her every meal time.
and she told us how she hated school because people in her school bully her.
I hope she's fine.

Vanessa, someone's thinking of you:)
be well.
grow up to be a great kid k?
see you again soon, I hope.

Happy Birthday Shing!

Primitive people refused to be photographed,
fearing the camera would steal their soul.
Like any good hunter the photographer stalks, takes aim, and shoots an image.
Who's to say that when the shutter traps that moment in time,
those primitive fears weren't well founded...

When I went to church for rehearsal.....

Guess what I saw......
GASP!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE WINDOW!!!

Even the toilet wall had a HUGE hole in it! How to go toilet like that? tsk. It's like those open air concept toilets they have at the zoo...

MAYBE, one day when I climb up the stairs, I'll see nothing infront of me!!! HOW COOL IS THAT! WOOT!

I can't WAIT! heh.

While I was journaling today I realized how I have never really excelled in anything I have done...

In school, I'm a average B student.
My piano skills are not impressively good.
My colours award was only a merit because I only held one leadership position as vice-president in choir.. even the sectional leaders received a distinction.
I was in a council that was disliked hated by the school.
The youth camp I chaired did not turn out well despite the TONS of help I got from my godpa, the ultimate camp organizer.
I stopped at a bronze medal for swimming.
I never got past grade one for ballet.
The food I cook is never heavenly.
My hamsters die within 2 years.
My plants die within half a year. (even the cactus)
My fishes die within a week.
I failed every test for the only I subject seemed good at once I got to uni.
Psych statistics killed my CAP.
And the list goes on....

BUT, in the end, I am glad I was never top in anything.
I am glad I have N-O-T-H-I-N-G to boast about.
I am glad that I was only mediocre.
cause then, my entry into University is really BY GOD'S GRACE.
My degree will be my testimony that I have been blessed by God.
So tonight, though it would never suffice, I wrote a long thank you letter to Him.
And when I was writing, a small part of me questioned: are you truly thankful? God could have given you everything but He did not!
I think, Jesus could have come down as a king but He did not.
And it was for a reason, just as my mediocre record was for a reason: That I may never forget His mercy and His power.
Once again, I thank you, Lord.

When people question my belief, I am unable to reply. But its only because I don't know the words to describe my everyday experiences with God.

my dearest upstairs neighbour,
I am in awe of you.
Every morning, you never fail to wake me up by 10am.
The loud clacking of your heels against your floor would send sharp and clear signals through my roof and into my tiny, unworthy ears.
For many months I wondered at your practice of wearing heels in the comfort of your home...
and it dawned upon my pygmy brain that only higher beings have that practice.
The resounding sound of your footsteps have been booming in my ear for 2 hours creating much unrest in my soul.
I fear you very much.
Every minute of my sleep I fear my ceiling falling apart from the stress you administer.
If you would be so kind as to think for lowly creatures such as us
We would be eternally grateful.

Please try and lose some weight.
It's not that I think you are fat....
I'm just concern about your health.
Or else, MOVE AWAY!!
I mean, such noble people should not subject themselves to proletarian housing...

Much love,
Your humble downstairs neighbour.

----

To my previous upstairs neighbours,

PLEASE COME BACK! I MISS YOU SOOOOOOO....
I don't mind you keeping a dog in the house.
The cllickity clack of its nails is NO MATCH to the booming I receive every morning.
I am greatly sleep deprived.
I beg for your return...
The leaky pipe has been fixed and I promise to keep my dad from blaming you for choking the pipe! (He really didn't mean it.)
COME BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!

Miss you much much,
Your former downstairs neighbour.

"Laughing would make your laugh box dead.
And you would't cured for it."-Emerlyn Ng, 11

finally, the pictures.

The fabulous meal Jia and Aunty Loke whipped up...

the toys I got from the imitation kinder surprise

Joycelyn and her tiny tart-cake. haha... twas' too early in the morning to find a decent cake.

The two birthday girls: Jia and Josephine:)

I kinda miss lj cause I could shove all my pictures under a cut and keep my blog neat.
It isnt very much of a problem when I only have one or two pics to post, but when I do have more, it feels much more cluttered. Or maybe its just me.

This week was filled with birthdays!
Josephine Low, 21
Loke Shi Jia, 21
Joycelyn Ho, 16
Happy birthday to all three of you princesses :)

Something is terribly wrong.
I cannot upload pictures at all.
I've tried 5 times.
I shall try tomorrow.
We'll have to make do with a imageless entry for today.
I found imitation kinder surprise!
It was a good day.

I think I blog with too many pictures.
So this entry will have NONE!
I actually felt guilty about sleeping in today so I woke up at 10AM!!!
I do not know what is wrong with me.
But despite waking up so early, I did not manage to get much studying done

I have been typing and deleting for the past 10 minutes because I really have nothing else to say but was trying to make this pictureless entry a bit longer (I deleted again)...
But I shall end here before my 'return' button wears out and I end up blogging about something totally boring.
I need to study anyway.

53 more days till the end of the semester.
I just scared myself.
I totally shouldn't have counted.

Your words didn't make me feel upset
I just realized that I wasn't conscious of the change
THAT hurt.
It seems even I don't know who I really am.
Or maybe I'm just like a painted nail
Underneath all the possible color changes,
I'm still the same pink nail...

There are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all. -1 corinthians 12:6

I was watching CSI
I felt nauseas and that a headache was coming
I realized that it's cause the volume was too loud
Old means old.

I wish something like that will happen tomorrow.

Its been raining alot lately
I love the cold wet weather.
I'm not doing very well, studying for my test..
There should never be words with more than 3 syllables.
What on earth is Dextromethorphan or Glucocorticosteroids
Try saying Dehydroepiandrosterone 5 times really fast.

Scientists love complicating things so that they can appear oh so clever
"We expect the Dehydroepiandrosterone to be synthesized into androstenendione and that would cause a gargantuan effect on the performance of the subject in question."
HELLO, you know if you speak NORMAL english, we all would stop thinking you are weird?
yes.

And I chose this module all by myself.
Maybe after this I can be the bridge between the nerds and the rest of the world.
I make stories to rationalize my actions.

I was reading my cousin's blog today and I realised how bad her english was!!

Hi everyone!
I'm so happy that CA1 is over! Yeah!
And I got back my English and Maths!
Yeah yeah. You all can laugh at me.
My marks was suck for life!
I don't wanna said out my mark.
You guys will laugh out with mad.
But I will cry for mad too.
Am I right? My pattern was just too fine.
And I haven't know my Chinese yet.
-extracted from my 12 year old cousin's blog

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I'm er...'laughing out with mad'..
but not at her marks...
I would give her english tuition every day if only she did not live in pasir ris.
I can just imagine daphne flipping at the atrocity of the language in that short paragraph.
I am still in shock.
my cousin...*gasp!*

They were comparing Lydia and me today at dinner.
Grandma Ng said Lydia is bigger.
Mummy said its cause she drinks more yakult
Aunty Joyce said I'm like a stick
Uncle eric disagreed.
He said lydia's arms are big but muscular
My arms are sticks with watery fats.
*WAILS*

All this was said in teochew in hope of hiding it from me
BUT I UNDERSTAND OKAY!

Mummy has founder's day dinner
She has been in and out of my room asking me to help her dress up for it
I said that the little boys in the school wont be able to tell if her bag didn't match.
but she pointed out that the year 5 and 6s have girls
a 47 year old should never compete with 17 and 18 year old girls.
and then she popped back in to say: there is also the VPs.
oh.
ok.
now I want to go and watch the battle of the aunties.

I dreamt I stayed in a house that isn't my house now,
Lydia was back with us and she was crying over something that happened in school
I was engaged to a chinese australian,
and he flew down to Singapore to surprise me
though I don't know if I was in spore since lydia was there
I was suppose to get married in two weeks and we were going to brunei or bintan or something for a one week holiday
But my parents wanted me to skip the holiday and get married earlier
and then I woke up at 2pm.

1. I am a pig. suffering the withdrawal effects of splurging
2. I have the weirdest dreams.
3. Why can you never see and remember the faces you most want to remember?
4. You psych majors, do not think about starting to analyze why I am having these dreams.