We'll all stay skinny cause we JUST WON'T EAT!

HELLO EVERYBARDY!
today I was very productive.
1. I actually managed to finish most of my marking and return all that rubbish to the kids. I have another half to finish tmw.
2. I managed to get my butt down to IDP to settle all the paper work and all.
3. I actually went to toa payoh to get more stuff for children's day tmw despite the FREAKING HOT SUN.
4. I went for body jam AND body combat. which is a GREAT achievement cause by the end of body jam I was half dead. and usually I don't feel anywhere near motivated to go for body jam cause I CANNOT MOVE TO THE MUSIC. I really have two left feet.

I FEEL GOOD.
I also realise how little I ate today.. though unintentionally.
Today I had:
- yakult
- fish burger
- green tea
- a cup of milk
- a banana

AMAZING.
and I'm not even hungry yet.

I've resumed my DRAMA SERIAL WATCHING HABITS!
I'm in the midst of this taiwan series called "Fated to Love You".
can I say this: Korean actors may be getting less and less handsome.
BUT SOMETHINGS GOING ON WITH THE TAIWAN ACTORS.
HOT like crazy canz.
ANYWAY, this story is about this girl who is super duper plain jane who is put together with a high powered handsome like crazy boss of some company through a series of unfortunate(or rather fortunate) events.
cliche? definitely.
but still every bit the AWESOME.
I guess no matter how old the story line is, I still cannot ignore the fairytale of a dark horse and a white horse finding true love :) (yes joel. I guess I still am into fairytale love stories.)
Sometimes we need a little bit of fantasy in this bleak world overrun with depressing love stories.

Joseph's chinese name is Wei Ping.
I just had to blog about that cause I have to remember it the next time I want to say his name with EMPHASIS.
I always forget his chinese name
and that spoils the moment..

JOSEPH NG erm..... XIAO MING

no more will I mess up an opportunity to announce his name to the world. muahahaha..
in less than 24 hours, he'll be on the flight to LSE.
I wont be seeing him for 3 years if he doesnt come back for dec hols...
but if i get this scholarship i'm trying for, I MIGHT HAVE SOME MONEY TO GO VISIT!!! AND SHOP IN UK!!! WOOT!

I really hope I get this scholarship thingy.
I shall be hardworking and go down to IDP next monday.

I just awoke from another weird dream..
I dreamt I was in wait for it..... DANCE CLASS! YES, you read it right.
and then I was practicing something and needed to check in the mirror to make sure that my body was kept straight. BUT THEN all my 'classmates' were BLOCKING MY LINE OF VISION.
so I became ultra frustrated and started to cry.
I woke up after crying very bitterly.
but in real life, I didn't shed a single tear.

I blame this on yesterday's interpretive dance class.
it deeply traumatized me.

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF TUITION!
you CANNOT imagine how happyELATED I am.
I decided that I CANNOT each people who cannot even do simultaneous equations and solving equations with only ONE unknown.
its frustrating when they take more than five minutes to finish a single question that can be done in a minute.

I'm just hoping she passes.
she wants to get 78% so that she can do A maths.
I wanted to tell her to do everyone a favour and just settle with E maths.
but I couldn't.
I AM SO HAPPY NOW.
*celebrate*

today has been very tiring.
I had a nap in the afternoon which had a very weird dream that I totally don't remember anything about except that it was really weird.
and I spent most of the day printing things I need when I make my trip down to IDP to accept my offer from UQ.
I was suppose to do that today but the sun was too hot and I was just plain lazy.
so I'll do it sometime later.
I also looked for scholarships that I can apply for.
I was writing my EOI and I realised how much I really need a scholarship.

Having to pay for the six long years of my sister's education in a medical course abroad already puts a great strain onto the family's finances. My youngest sister is looking to enter the local university next year and my parents have also recently become the primary caregivers to my grandparents who have both underwent major operations in the recent year. My paternal grandfather had to undergo brain surgery in order to remove a tumour that was affecting his mobility and causing incontinence, while my grandmother had to have a shoulder replacement done after a fall crushed her left shoulder blade. They require regular checkups and medical attention leading to substantial medical costs. This is why I am applying for this scholarship.

it sounds pretty dramatic doesnt it.
Especially when the part about the tumour and the crushed shoulder comes in.
amazing.
I wonder if the uni would think I made it up.

While I was walking to kickboxing today I just suddenly became very concerned over how I should be saving the bulk of my money (dont worry trashy.. I am still up for my shopping trip on tues. hahahaha..)
While boxing I imagined I was boxing all my troubles into pulp and that helped a bit.
but I'm not sad. (toshi, this is NOT an emo post.)
I'm not sad cause God has already said He would provide.
So I'm just waiting to see how he does that :)
But anyway,Pray ok? thanks.

tmw I have my last tuition session with sonia.
I'm happy cause its soon to be over.
I'm sad cause I'll be poorer.
But i'm more happy than sad.
I dont like travelling down to church just to give her tuition
its too troublesome.
CANT WAIT FOR TMW!

I know my blog has been suffering from a great lack of photos lately but i'm really too lazy to upload stuff :(

I found out that my last day of work is on the 23rd of oct instead of the 15th and I GET TO GO TO THE MG MINIFAIR! excites!
I returned my gown today and they told me I could keep the gown cover...
I do not know what to do with it.
useless free gifts make my room increasingly cluttered.

Leah experienced her very first incidence of lost mail.
I wish I knew where lost mail goes to.
HOW can something just disappear like that?? NO LOGIC!
sigh.

anyway, lately I've been doing less online window shopping and more fashion blog reading and my FAVOURITE READS are seaofshoes and fashiontoast.
They inspire me to train myself to wear heels cause everything looks better with heels..
but my feet will just crumble and DIE.
so I can only look on with envy...
I ALSO LOVE FASHION ICONS LIKE TWIGGY (who is the lady featured above in case you didn't know).
cause she has the HUGE BEAUTIFOO DROOPY EYES.
I remembered the time I was working at Shu uemura and my counter manager did my eye makeup and she was discussing makeup techniques with the counter girl of lancome and...
CM: Her eyes really suit the smoky eye look.
Lancome: yeah. because her pupils are large enough...
CM: mm...
Lancome: but then she has droopy eyes ah..
CM: yeah.. tts why I have to put the lash a bit off the actual lashline to fix it.

FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I hear someone say I have droopy eyes.
and I was sitting there worrying it was something totally terrible.
UNTIL I found twiggy :)
I love her to bits cause we share the same 'problem': droopy eyes..

I shouldn't have to fight for something that's already mine
But her pursuit of you has undermined my peace of mind.

if you haven't already noticed, I have had a visitor counter put into the bottom of my page.
I have been very excited every day to see how much the counter has changed.
usually it only goes up at about an average of 10..
but then I'm also comforted by the fact that few ppl know about this blog and I would love to keep it that way... but recently, it has been going up. I WONDER WHY, ilightfirecrackers.

anyway, this weekend has been mad rush crazy.
i actually planned to type out all I have done and am going to do in the next week but tt would be a VERY BORING post.
so i'll just end here.
I need sleep anyway. NIGHT!

juno

You're a part-time lover and a full-time friend
The monkey on your back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see
In anyone else but you

I'll kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train
I'll kiss you all starry-eyed my body swingin' from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see
In anyone else but you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

Pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive
So why can't you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

I will find my niche in your car
With my MP3, DVD, rumble pack, guitar
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

You are always tryin' to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam, I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
Shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else
But you
But you-The Moldy Peaches - Anyone Else but You

This morning at 7.20am, the HOD of science AMBUSHED me in the general office to ask me to take primary 6 supplementary class..
*panic*
IN THE END, there was no supp class due to some confusion :)

went for tuition which was ok..
and then I had dinner with matt.
we spent the night talking about pretty deep stuff.. like prayer, truth, holiness and grace.
This is SO unlike matt but it was a good time of sharing what we thought about the different issues :)
it did feel like mentoring session though.
gave him my whole collection of winnie the pooh stuff cause i'm trying to clear out my room.
EVERYONE TAKE NOTE!
MATTHEW HING SAYS HE IS QUITTING DOTA.
let's see if he REALLY manages to do it.

ps: one of my extensions fell out today on its own.. i'm pretty upset, though I don't know why. OH WELL. It'll soon be time for pink ones anyway :) HEARD THAT DEBS?

body combat today was SUPER CHALLENGING.
I am SO going to pay for it tmw.
but I don't really care.

currently, I'm majorly sleep deprived.
I can't wait till the weekend... and I really thank God this sunday's service is at 5pm :) I get to sleep in.

Went for dinner with my godpa and he was just telling me the AMAZING things that have been happening at his new church.
they had this evangelistic event, and over 140 ppl came to receive Christ!
Last year during christmas, 200 ppl came to Christ and they are expecting 300 this year.
I am SO amazed and SO excited for them... at the same time, I really wished it was happening in ALL the churches.
PRay also talked about how their church doesn't limit events to a budget and they always put in everything into every event, how the senior pastor doesn't take a salary from the church, how their youths commit 2 years to ministry and the church pays them the market rate for what they do... how their children's ministry has a full band, how children are not left out in evangelistic events...how the church staff gather EVERY wednesday, thursday AND friday mornings at 9am for AN HOUR to pray for the church and SPECIFIC members of the church.
I am left speechless.. and ashamed.
What happened to us Methodists?
we have become limited by a church budget. and every budget we submit is cut even further. ideas are thrown away because of the high projected costs.
What are we doing with what we are given with?
where is our passion?
where is our 200 people for Jesus?

treasure this moment.

to-die, trashie came over and we had RED BOWL NOODLES! yay. the log cock noodles which taste unbelievably good due to the nostalgia it brings with every SLURP.

ANYWAY, I went for my very first BODY BALANCE CLASS today. and it was.... FUN-NY.
Debs and I were DYING!
it was a class which tested your ability to PERSEVERE!
it was part yoga and part pilates. I like all these hybrid classes cause you get a taste of many different things in one hour.
ANYWAY, I was falling all over because of my complete INABILITY to balance and it DOESN'T HELP that there is this HUGE mirror in front of me so I see how stupid I look falling over.

at the end of the class, the teacher turned off the lights while we just lay in the dark and he tried to soooooooth us with his gay sooothing voice.
I tried really extremely hard not to laugh and was doing well UNTIL he said: Relax. breathe in. This is YOUR moment. Treasure it.

or something like that.

I'M GOING AGAIN NEXT WEEK FOR SURE.
it relaxes me.

today was the LONGEST DAY OF THE WEEK. 6am till 10pm: School then mentoring then body jam then body balance. NO BREAKS. yes.
I'm drained.

After reading that thinking can make people fat, I don't know what else won't make people fat.
ANYWAY, I realised I have about a month's more of relief teaching to go and I'll be retrenched. *GASP!* I need to start thinking what I'm going to do next.

I feel that I should volunteer at some place related to my field of study and I'll probably do that for about a month or so.. but I still have 2 plus more months for other things.

I want to work in a place where there is NO dress code restrictions. So that I can wear my shorts and tees and jeans and all... after 4 months of not being able to do that (and not being able to wear shorts much since I can't wear shorts to church as well leaving me only one miserable day to wear shorts), I think that is in my list of criterias. I could go back to working at the makeup counters but that would mean that I have to wear black every working day. AND SHOES. ultimate no-no combo for now.

I think good working hours are also important as I would LOVE to have time to meet up with people for random meals and such without having to wait till 5.30pm everyday to do that.

I would also love to wake up late on at least some of the days.. after 4 months of 6am mornings, I think that's more than enough.

Distance is also an issue. If I have to change two buses and sit on the train before I reach my place of work everyday, I'll just shrivel up and die. Or rather, my ez-link card would.

It also cannot be too boring. I WILL NOT allow myself to go back to data entry. Tecman paid me less than 3 bucks an hour for the work I did and I have been very bitter since. Work has to be interesting and I need to feel that my work is worth it. IF the pay is low, there should be some other form of satisfaction I get out of it. For that matter, I think that data entry is pretty much a low paying job, both in actual pay and in job satisfaction. Unless you are the kind that get satisfaction from clearing a pile of paper work.

Work must not make me think too much as well. Seeing the above article, it has dawned upon me the reason as to why my middle has thickened and my countenance has become more prosperous.

looks like I'll end up not working much at all...heh.

I just had a dream that Aisyah and I were at this place which looked alot like a museum.
And then I got lost looking at something for too long and when I turned to find her, I saw her talking to Teresa and I was like: HEY! TERESA! YOU ARE HERE!
and then suddenly I also saw a VERY VERY VERY skinny Daryl wong(like his head was all skinny and his whole face changed to a very long oval shape) and then I also saw Andrea lee qing, and Quentin, and Debs and like a whole bunch of people that I don't recognize but am apparently suppose to know since we started talking and joking.. and Quen went:"how come the other day we went to your place and you weren't there?" and then he knocked my head and said:"no one's ever in." and then the WHOLE BIG BUNCH OF PEOPLE started laughing at me when I went all confused saying:"since when was I not in when you all came over?" and the weirdest thing was that we were all in this winter get up with scarves and all. (IT MUST BE AUSSIE! SO YOU ALL MUST COME!! heh.)
and then someone clamped their HUGE GINORMOUS hand over my head and while I was trying to back out to get it off, I bumped into someone and when I asked who it was and was going to apologize, I realised it was someone whom I shall not name because I TOTALLY CANNOT STAND HIM much less have any physical contact of any sort with him and I was like:"NO WAY" and then EVERYONE whom I apparently know just started laughing again.

I woke up thinking... In less than half a year, I would have to go on a fast from all these people whom I totally enjoy being with (other than the person I bumped into). It's pretty depressing for a while..
BUT BUT BUT, I'll be looking forward to year end when I can see everyone and meet up with everyone AGAIN! and I was thinking this dream is like a PROPHECY (forgive my loose use of the term).. BECAUSE, when I come back, I bet I'm going to have like a whole ton of other friends that know me even though I haven't met them, just like how Caleb came back to people who knew him even though he didn't know them. yes. THE FELLOWSHIP is ever growing, thanks to Toshi.

IN THE MEANTIME, once I finish all my duties and have all the time in the world on my hands, it'll be time to do MAJOR meeting up with all the wonderful people on the red dot before I fly off to the land of the kangaroos, Koalas, wombats (the cutest creatures in the world) and the DFOs!!!!

oh. and Afternoon naps give me the weirdest dreams.

I AM ACHING.

body combat class was FUN FUN FUN,
but now I'm aching like mad.
And then there is captains ball on SUNDAY :)
I kinda like it that I'm exercising now..
I hope I have the discipline to keep this up.

today's classic conversations

Conversation 1:
Regene: Miss Hang, Yunying said her friend saw you and your boyfriend.
Me: Really? where?
Regene: Don't know. But she saw you!!
Me: what was I doing?
Regene: Holding hands with your boyfriend la!
Me: Cannot be.
Regene: WHY CANNOT! CAN!
Me: Nope. Can't be me.
Angela: why cannot be?
Regene: No. It can be cause there is SUMMER LOVE (().o so gossip girl!)
Me: WHAT?? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. (I seriously laughed out loud cause it was too funny)
Regene: Miss Hang is mad! Call the mental hospital (she uses her SHOE as the PHONE)


Conversation 2:
Ruth: Miss Hang, how old are you?
Me: Ruth, do your work. Don't ask irrelevant questions! Exams are coming already.
-silence for about 15 seconds-
Ruth: No matter how old you are, I'm older than you by one light year. But I look very young because I always travel in time so I never get older.
they have the WILDEST imaginations.

Sometimes when we see stuff like that, we ask how such things can happen to a poor defenseless child.
We ignore the gift of life he had.
Is it really better to not be born into this world than to be given the chance to be loved?
Won't we then say again that God is not real if the child died before birth or is still born?
when will we be satisfied?

today, I had a very disturbing conversation with my student.

YY: Miss Hang, does everyone have armpit hair?
Me: erm. ya. When you grow up.
YY: My sister just started to have! She named them.
Me: WHAT?!?!
YY: yep! There is Polly, Curly, Wurly....

oh goodness.
I shall resist the urge to post this with a picture of the subject of our discussion today.
I need to exercise soon!!
I've been feeling very sluggish.

Joy.

YMLC was tiring but good.
For moments I felt that last year's YMLC was better but this year was good too.
3 prayers that I have been praying about were answered during the first night.
It was amazing.
Sometimes when people say: my prayers were answered! I feel just a slight bit skeptical.
It could have been coincidence I guess.
but THREE in a night?
I felt a bit dead before YMLC and my spiritual life was as quen terms it, on maintenance mode.
I wanted something RADICAL. or WOW-ish.
and I got it :)

today, I got another bite of joy in an email :)
the official offer from UQ.

'tis the season to be jolly, falalalalalalalala!

Deep fried love

FRIED MARS BARS... yum.

Fried TWINKIES and fried COKE. DOUBLE yum!

Deep fried OREOS! TRIPLE YUM.

Dunk my heart in a vat of lard,
it's getting all crispy and it's gettin' all hard
Deep fried love, come on give me the grease
Shove that hamburger down your throat,
Pass the ketchup, I can, I won't, I don't.

Life is short, can I have it to go?
If it's not in the TV Guide then I don't know.
Buy buy buy a lot of junk to fill up the time.
Shove that chicken wing down your throat,
Pass the bucket, i can, I won't, I don't.

Shove that hamburger down your throat,
Pass the ketchup, I can, I won't, I don't
-Beck

Krispy Kreme bacon and cheese burger!!! the GOODS of the world.

AND AS IF THAT IS NOT ENOUGH...
found on neatorama: burger birthday cake!!!!!!!

The bacon was made from fruit leather, the sesame seeds from Rice Krispies, the burger patty was oreo and chocolate cake and the bun was vanilla cake with caramel frosting.-Neatorama

I'm hungry.

credits: postsecret

Having the whole house to myself is not so good after all.
It's depressingly quiet.
And not having anyone around in a huge house is a little creepy.
Last night I had ilightfirecrackers to keep me company..
so tonight is my first official night alone at home.
I'm just hoping tmw night, some of the ANTZ will decide to come over to spend the night..
then I won't be all alone.

guess what guess what GUESS WHAT!!!!
BU ZHI BU JUE, it's time for GOSSIP GIRL AGAIN!
YAY!

After being transferred from one department to the next and being on the phone listening to "for broadband configuration, press 1" and the likes for about half an hour and callin up a grand total of 6 times, I fixed the internet.
BUT, I still am unable to watch my shows BECAUSE this thing loads like one second of the show every 5 minutes and so i'm back to tapping on the neighbour's internet -.-

I'm getting THE GOODS tmw.
I'll be back in mayfair
and I'll be staying there till I leave for YMLC.
yay.