Brownies

I had a tiny brownie craving so I decided to make some tonight :)
I haven't cut into them yet and might have to wait till tomorrow morning to do so, seeing that it's almost 12MN already and I really shouldn't be eating at this time.
I decided to put them in my room because I didn't really have any other place to put it.
So now my room smells gloriously like a brownie shop :)
I'm going to sleep so well tonight.
Can't wait for tomorrow morning when I get to sink my teeth into some brownies!
I hope they taste decent..
I haven't made them for a really really long time..

I finished TWO PACKETS of jam sandwich creams in less than 2 days.
Who ask them to make it taste so awesome.

Things I want/want to do

1. Bake Brownies
I haven't done that in a very long while and I'm quite unsure if I can still make decent brownies..
I'm going to try on Friday..
2. Exercise
I always say this but I end up stuck on my fat butt because I'm too lazy.
I tried to convince Q that we should sign up for body combat classes together but it's just going to be a waste of money unless we are truly committed to it.
But I should move a little more because I'm maintaining my weight now only because I don't eat enough (Q is going to be so happy I'm actually admitting this).
3. A long actually relaxing holiday
We've planned one at the end of this year but the thing about holidays is that sometimes you come back feeling even ore exhausted than before.
I really hope this one would be an awesomely relaxing one!

I thought it would be a really long list but that's about it!
Work is going really great with marked progresses happening at the moment.
With the slightly reduced work hours, I feel happier and it seems to be helping my kids as well :)
I am excited to see what the next year brings.
CHRISTMAS IS COMING SOON! :D

blessings in disguises

Today, started out looking like one of those awful Sundays filled with obligations and no bum time.
Q had a wedding rehearsal which would mean that I wouldn't have him for majority of the day.
Then we also had to visit my grandma because I haven't seen her ever since my grandpa passed away,
and then we had a dinner at my maternal grandparents' place that was compulsory, so the night wasn't ours either
All we had was about 1.5 hours in the late afternoon to split between catching up on sleep and talking.
But because days like this should always become worse, after visiting my grandma, Q's car couldn't start.
And with parents fussing over things and shouting and not being very helpful, it was a very stressful situation.
But it turned out to be a super blessing in disguise.
After shooing my parents off to dinner, Q called up the mechanic and we shared a prayer for the situation we were in.
Because we were stuck in the carpark for a very legitimate reason, we couldn't go to the dinner.
This allowed Q and I to share a nice walk to the nearby shopping center to grab some dinner while waiting for the car mechanic to arrive.
We spent the 2 newly acquired hours talking and having valuable quality time with each other :)
And somehow, even though the carpark was really stuffy and hot and we were in the most uncomfortable place ever,
it was the best evening I've had in a long time.
I always believe that God allows these moments to give us glimpses of our future together.
When trouble comes our way, He will see us through it and bind us closer together :)

20

This month has been ROUGH.
But I'm glad it's clearing up.
Original plans fell through to the other side of the earth and so I had to start learning to say 'no' to keep my head above the water.
And it's really helping.
I'm looking forward to work a lot more
I still look forward to weekends but I deal with the weekdays better now.
I'm feeling a little less stressed
And I am looking forward to a nice holiday at the end of the year :)
Only a little over 2 months till Christmas!
I have a tiny log cake craving already :P

What things look like in a kid's brain.

Yesterday, I asked one of my kids to draw a girl and a cat and the result was quite hilarious.

The girl had something sticking out of her head so I asked the child what it was.
He said it was a helicopter! hahaha..
And then he started to draw rain and I told him he needed to give the girl and umbrella and hands to hold the umbrella since he decided to make it rain.
Her hands came out looking like wings.
His girl's left hand has 6 fingers, all of the same length, with no palm or arm whatsoever.
The triangles were suppose to be houses.
He drew the tiny one on the left but I told him it was too small and she won't be able to fit in.
So he drew the bigger one.


Halfway through drawing the cat, he started telling me it might be a dog instead.
But at the end of it he decided it was still a cat.
So I told him he better write that down so that people would know that too.
Next week I might try asking him to draw a boy to see how it compares with the girl, and a dog to compare against the cat.
Things sure look a little weird in the kids' heads.

I am a bum.

This morning I woke up to an SMS from my kid's mom saying she has fever so lesson is cancelled.
I had grand plans of cleaning my room, doing a little bit of packing and throwing away the paper that has been accumulating...
(I HATE mail. I rather have a ton of emails then mail like bills and stuff that just accumulate and make everything look messy)
But I ended up bumming in bed from 8am till 2pm.
YES.
SIX WHOLE HOURS OF JUST LYING THERE.
I don't know why I did it.
I regret it fully.
I could have done so much.
I never used to be this way.
I used to have this compulsive need to DO SOMETHING.
To clean and reclean and pack and repack and stay active.
BUT ANYWAY,
I have another chance to redeem myself tomorrow.
I have 2 hours to clean my room tomorrow.
And I will not let today's SIX HOURS OF SHAME repeat itself.
WILL NOT.
tomorrow I will get a nice and clean room.

Drama

I fell down the stairs today.
My brain was dead or something and my legs forgot how to go down stairs.
So while I was super ready to start my day at work,
TUMBLE. Right down the staircase.
The Indian grandmother staying at the first floor saw me and started talking to me in tamil or hindi or something I didn't understand.
And I just kept saying: 'I'm OH KAY. OH KAY. It's OH KAY.'
Finally she realised I didn't understand whatever her language was and said 'Pain?'
I nodded in reply.
And then she said: 'OH KAY?'
And I nodded again.
Then she vanished back into her home.
I sat there for a while till I stopped shaking and I called all my clients to cancel the day's sessions.
Then I slowly made my way back home and plopped myself onto the couch.
Then Leah came home and saw me.
I burst into tears while telling her how painful it was because the entire day has been so super sucky for me.
She went into the kitchen and emerged with a cup of milo dinosaur for me.
I have such a sweet sister :)
It made me feel a lot better.
Now I'm much better.
It isn't much.. Mostly bruises.
My legs still feel like someone tried to cripple me but I'll be fine.
Maybe I should look for a job where I can stay in bed ALL DAY.
then I won't get into stupid accidents like this.

This period of my life is just incredibly stressful.

Happy 21st, Baby Sister!

Happy Birthday, Leah!
You are one of the two best sisters I have ever had ;)
Love you so much!