I've been really moody lately.

Unlike the usual PMS, I've been extremely explosive and sensitive :(

Thank God Q is ultra patient, because I really have been irritable.

Today was just a whole combination of feeling very uncomfortable, horrible horrible drivers and bad things happening one after another.

Allowing myself lose my temper just made it worse because I became upset that I allowed myself to be upset.

Tomorrow, I will be more controlled.

And I will give Q a huge hug for taking everything that I threw at him.

Tomorrow will be better.

I want.

via 100 layer cake

the CIA

Just had my very first session for this new course I am taking in an effort to upgrade my skills.
It's called Certificate in Autism or CIA for short.
SO COOL RIGHT.
I'm in the CIA. hahaha..
It's been very interesting and I have a whole bunch of things I can't wait to try out.
But it'll have to wait till next week..
It's kind of fun to be back at 'school' and yet a little scary.
With all the assessments and assignments think about again, this time on top of work stress..
AND the upcoming nuptials and all..
I hope I won't break down half way through.
It's been quite a day.

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When people say they are going to attend a marriage preparation course, we usually think: WOAH! They are taking such a HUGE step.
But in my opinion, couples shouldn't wait till they are actually going to get married to go for it.
Things we learnt in the marriage preparation course has helped Q and I get through so many situations I am so very thankful we went for it earlier, giving ourselves enough time to digest and practice what we learnt before taking the next step of getting engaged and preparing for the wedding.
Of course, it was good also because we had really good mentors and everyone there was very ready to share and ask real questions and participate actively.
I remember looking forward to each session where Q and I learnt more about each other and about how to relate better with one another.
It was excellent quality time :)
Looking back, the course prepared us for many situations that are actually happening now.
And I thank God every single day for Q (even when I get upset at him), because he has stepped up time and time again to show me that he means it when he says 'I have your back.'
6 more months till we begin our journey toward being a cute old married couple :)

weird thoughts.

When we think about getting married, we think about flowers, catering. the church, the people...
THE GROOM.
But the one thing that I think about most of the time is what happens when we really need to pee...
or worse, do the big one?
Where does all the skirt go in the tiny cubicle?
I think I might need to wear a diaper.

185

The self inflicted busyness seems to have attacked my health.
I stayed home yesterday due to the flu and I'm taking half of today too because I woke up with a huge headache, a really scratchy throat and a spinning room.

I was just thinking back on the wedding arrangements so far,
and I have to say that even within the first month, a lot of things I envisioned will not be possible.
Partially because parents (both mine and Q's) can be very finicky about some things.
Like my mom insists there is a need for a traditional invite with the chinese words even though she only needs 9 chinese invites.
And WHY does everyone shake their head in disapproval when I tell them I am wearing flip flops when I walk down the aisle?
WHY?
The skirt is so long anyway, so you wont be able to see whatever is underneath.
So I believe in wearing something I feel comfortable walking in,
and something I can use over and over again after the wedding.

It might just be my pounding head that is causing me to be so grumpy.
But I still have 6 months to push for things so I'm going to try my best.
185 days to go.

Dresses

Deciding on dresses must be the most tiring part of wedding preparation:
For the bride and even more so for the groom.
I had 6 outfits to choose and must have tried on almost 30 dresses in 2 hours.
But the best part was that Q was super patient throughout the entire ordeal.
When it came to his turn, he took nothing more than 5 minutes to try on a blazer for size.
According to the bridal studio, he doesn't get to choose his suit.
The photographer will choose for him, based on the dresses I chose :(

With the huge variety of shapes and designs, it really is hard to choose.
It didn't help that my usual get up is a plain black tank top and shorts.
So I really had no idea what fit my body shape and what didn't
And having an idea of what you want doesn't necessarily mean you'll be able to find it.
But thank God I had a really helpful girl helping me with the choosing and that Q was incredibly patient and awesome :)

Something blue? or pink? or maybe green?

Deciding on a colour palette for your wedding has got to be the hardest thing ever.
I love navy blue and am quite adamant about having it in the palette.
I wanted fuchsia gerberas too because they were such a pretty pop of colour.
which made the navy blue and fuchsia combi my very first choice.
BUT now I feel like I'm walking down a whole different path.
I thought I had it down pat then I met the florist.
Then came a whole flood of fantastic and amazing ideas
Which kind of washed my colour palette away
So now I'm back to being very clueless.
SOOO confusing.

THIS for example, is SUCH a pretty sight even though I've never been a pink kinda girl.

(via theperfectpalette)

And.....

(via theperfectpalette)

grey and pink go SO well together.
But I still am not a very pink kind of girl.
I do need to decide soon though!!

Mr Right.

I'm about 6.5 months to my wedding and planning is already overwhelming me a little.
I am feeling the pressure of having to make decisions even though we have absolutely no experience in any of this.
So many things are already not going as planned,
even some things we thought were settled are suddenly unsettling themselves and causing some worry.
I'm just really grateful for Q.
When all our plans started to fall apart, he stepped in supportive and calm and comforting.
And now even if we settle for just an ROM ceremony, I will be happy as long as I marry Q :)

Beautiful Bouquets

(via greenweddingshoes)

I always tell Q NEVER to give me flowers.
Flowers to me are a waste of money because they die so quickly and I have no idea what to do with them when they start shriveling up or their petals start to droop.
But now, I am in love with flowers.
I still don't want Q to ever buy me any, but they are just really really pretty to look at.
And I think it takes a whole lot of skill to pull together a really nice bouquet.

(via Marthastewartweddings)

Paperwork it!

This getting married thing is no joke.
Q and I have been swimming in quite a lot of paperwork lately.
And we have been making very grownup decisions and having to pickup and learn about a whole lot of things in a very short time.
But I am very very thankful that the Lord has been very gracious to us.
We have had a whole lot of help from agents and bank sellers and family and all which has made the whole process much easier to bear.
I have a feeling this whole paperwork thing we all go through is why our moms remember our dads' IC numbers and all.
It's been a really wild ride with getting my accounts in order because I have been so lazy the past year :(
Also thank God for the reduced work load with two of my kids cancelling for the week..
It has given me more time and energy which I really need to see all this through.
If I had a normal work week, I wouldn't be able to stay up so late to get things done and I would be worrying so much about it while I try to sleep.
God's timing is always awesome :D

I kind of wish I daydreamed about my wedding more.
Then I would know exactly what I wanted.
Now, it's just too many choices to make at once.
EVERYTHING looks awesome.
Even flower bouquets which I once thought I would do without.
I had to be insane.

Hello, 2012

Entering the new year as a bride-to-be,
and having a little under 7 months to plan my wedding,
Wedding blogs and magazines will be my main literature for the first half of the year.
So I decided (with the encouragement of Q) that I will re-blog about some of the interesting and beautiful finds I get from all my reading :)

So, starting off this phase of blogging are Sugar Cookie Wedding Cakes!
As I have a teeny passion for baking, these gorgeous cookies strike a very full and beautiful chord in my heart.

If only I had enough time and patience, I would definitely try my hands at these and make them part of my reception.